I can't let you in

Dont cry over spilled coffee

Lydia's point of view
I woke up in the arms of a boy, for a split second I thought I had made yet another drunken mistake like in the past. Then the events of the past four days played in my head like a movie. I turned to see the dark haired boy with his mouth fully open snoring. I got up as slow and quite as a could so I did not wake him. I walked over to my closet and rummaged trough the large amount of dresses in the middle, I grabbed a dark blue shirt sleeve dress with pockets, a cream colored sweater, and tall grey riding boots. I walked to the bathroom connected to my bedroom and shut the door. I put my hair in a messy bun and started my bath. I sat down in the warm water and thought for a while about last nights events. I did not understand why he took aiden, he was the only guy I was steady with after Jackson left. I then remember the conversation we had before school the other morning.

|flash back|
"So are we a going to talk or just sit here lyd's?"
"I think we need to take a break...you know I'm trying to get into college early on line and everything that way I don't have to leave as soon as we graduate and everything. So are you okay with us taking the break?"
"Anything that makes you happy. Ready for school now?"
I could see the hurt in his eyes but I knew if I protested he would just deny what I was seeing.
"Yep lets go."
"Lydia one more thing? Can I kiss you one more time please?"
|flash back over|

I remember leaning in like I wasn't going to be our last kiss. I never imagined it would in like this. Never in a million years. I finally can back to when I realize the water was cold. I got out and got dressed letting my hair down and brushing it. I walked out of the bathroom remembering who was in my bed. I walked over to my desk as quite as I could. I sat down an did my hair in a half up half down braid crown thing. I then decided to put on makeup to hide my tear stained cheeks from the days prior. I finished with my pink lipstick as usual. I went back into the bathroom and picked up my pajamas, I folded Aidens shirt into a little square. I held it to my nose taking in his aroma it smelled like Hollister and sweat. I grabbed my spandex folded them neatly and set them in the desk in my room. My next task was to wake the tall dark haired skinny boy in my bed.

I gathered his red and grey flannel, dark jeans, and his wine red shirt with navy blue sleeves and hems. I set them on the end of the bed. I walk to the top of the bed and sit down. I lean forward just a little so I'm at least six inches from is face.
"Stiles wake up." I say abruptly. He grabbed my extra pillow and put it on his face. He then grunted and stuck his hand out and I put his shirt in his hand. He put it on then followed by his jeans that he motioned for. He got out of my bed sloppily and walked into the bathroom. He did not close the door I heard him looking in the cabinet and I yelled "third drawer top left corner." My guess is that he was looking for his toothbrush and mouthwash. He used to stayed a lot when my mom went out of town, or before Aiden and I got together he would come and stay when I was afraid for being alone so eventually I just bought him a toothbrush to keep here. I never threw it away just Incase something like this happened and I needed him to stay again.

After some time we went down stairs and we made breakfast. Stiles made the waffles it was the one thing he loved to make in the mornings. I made the bacon, eggs, and hash browns. I had called Scott and the rest of the pack to come over until we heard something from Deaton about Allison. I did not tell them about breakfast because I thought it would be a nice surprise, some good in all of this bad. I hadn't really thought about anything other than making the food I didn't want to think about anything but stiles did not seem to understand that. He kept asking me things like "how did his parents take it.", "have you heard anything from Derek?", "Lydia are you okay?". Finally I got sick of it and snapped.
"Stiles I would like to just think about doing something nice for the pack while we wait for ally to wake up. I don't want to talk about it I don't want to think about it and I don't want to continue to blame my self for the fact that he took the wrong person and the he hurt me and you and everyone so could you please just stop I can't do it I need to be okay please just make them stop. SHIT!" I spilled coffee all over the front of my apron it was seeping through to my dress and onto my skin. There was a knock at the door I said a spell to open it the door flew open and everyone came in.

That was another thing Bonnie had thought me. I could be a witch and a banshee. She tough me simple spells and left me all of her grimoires she said she didn't need them anymore because she wouldn't be using magic unless she came to help me.

The coffee was still burning my skin so I ran upstairs. Tears in my eyes I didn't even shut the door I wasn't worried about it I was just worried about finding a different outfit so I could get the coffee stained ones off. Stiles came in and started to say he was sorry and I just yelled at him to help me. He grabbed a similar dress same color different design and and grey sweater this time. I started to change and stiles started to flip out.
Stiles point of view
She was starting to change and I got all weird I stated to stutter until I finally turned around so I couldn't see her. She told me she was dressed and I had to talk to her about what he said.
"Lyds I'm here for you. I'm never going to leave and I'm never going to hurt you. I need you too be honest with me. What just happened? Why did you snap the way you did? Are you oka-"
I could hear her crying she still faced away from me but she I could see her crying I could see the way her eyebrows where crunched together and the wrinkles on her four head because, I've seen that face before, I've held it in my hands, I've studied that face a million times since the day her dad walked out in her and her mom. She turned around suddenly and I opened my arms she fell into them I kissed the top of her head and she pulled away. Wiped her eyes and walked out her door and down the stairs. I soon followed after I took in everything that had just happened. I heard her say "well y'all sure did help yourselves didn't you." With a laugh. That stupid laugh.

I walked down stairs and found my girlfriend pacing back and fourth I walked over planting a kiss on her lips.
"Where were you last night? I came to your house your dad said you did not come home he assumed you where with me. But you weren't so where were you.?" Malia was being really bitchy for some reason and it was pissing me off faster than anything in this world.
"He stayed the night with me we stayed up all night playing call of duty. I needed him and he was there for me Lydia texted him this morning to see if he would help her make food to help ease the pack he said yes, so back off Tate. Today's not the day understand." Scott Saved my ass he didn't have to and I don't understand why he did.
"Understood." She pecked me in the lips and walked away.
"You didn't have to do the Scott. With everything your dealing with because of me already you didn't have to do that."
"I know how hard it would be for you to explain to Malia that you stayed with Lydia because she needed you. And I'm always going to cover for you as long as you cover for me alright."
"Alrighty"

Lydia's point of view
All of the pack was in the living room. I had gone into the kitchen to grab some more coffee. My phone rang in the living room. I walked to the archway and looked at my phone I said a spell and in landed in my hand I answered the call it was from Deaton. As soon as a hung up I was afraid to actually say it. So I pulled and everyone pushed. Everyone was in my head.
"She's awake but she's not the same ally we knew she only knows two people...."
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Hi I know it's been a while I'm just super busy or I just don't really feel like writing anything. But I cranked this out today because I really wanted to post something.

I hope everyone had an amazing holiday and I hope everyone has and amazing new year!!
-Brandi💛