I can't let you in

Long days, longer nights

Stiles point of view
When Allison and Lydia came back to the house we had just hung out like a pack for the first time in forever. Lydia was walking back and forth from the kitchen getting people things as the asked for them. Scott had just asked for whiskey and she was about to get up to grab it.

"Sit down lyds I'll get it." I said out of nowhere. Malia shot me a dirty look.
"No I'll grab it it's fine I promise." Lydia complied. I hate when she promises things that little because it takes the since out of the promise for big things.
"Fine I'll just go with you then." Malia still giving me a dirty look, I got up and walked to the counter Lydia was at. She grabbed the whole bottle of whiskey and seven glasses.

"Can we talk for just a second?" I asked simply because I wanted to be alone with her just even if it's for two minutes. Any time with her was amazing.
"Yes, whats wrong?"
"Nothing, do you want me to stay tonight? I can it's no big deal I swear. Umm other than Malia I'll have to tell her that I'm staying at Scott's or Isaac's that's not a big de-"
"Everyone's staying stiles. Since you know now we are all drinking. And for the record you don't have to lie to her so you can stay I don't care if you tell her. Honestly. And yes I would have loved for you to stay since my moms gone but ally's back so I think I should hopefully be okay."
"Lydia where are you with the drinks!?" Scott and Derek yell in unison.
"Coming!" And just like that she swung around and walked away. What am I going to do about her.

Lydia's point of view
I didn't want to walk away I even stopped after I took four steps I wanted more than anything to turn around run to him and ask him to stay and make everyone leave. I need one person and one person only but he's gone. And it's my fault of course it's my fault. I walked into the living room not saying anything I handed everyone a glass including my self and stiles. I let everyone pour there own because I didn't want to offend anyone for giving them to much. I poured a whole glass for myself. I took a sip of the deep brown liquid, it burned the the back of my throat and warmed my stomach. I stole a few glances at stiles but soon after I stole them Malia returned them with her own hateful looks. We used to be close you know until she found out I was his obsession until she came along. We used to go to movies, late night Walmart runs, early morning coffee, and most importantly we would talk about guys. She thought it was funny that I "got around" because I look like the type to just stick to one guy. I mostly did, Jackson then he left I had a few hookups then aiden came along and we where steady for about a year. Now he's gone too, everyone in the group had a person to call there own other than me. Isaac has Kira, Allison has Scott, Derek has Braeden, and I have me I guess. Maybe I'll like it like that one day being the only person without someone I have to worry about loving unconditionally.

I took a large drink this time almost finishing my glass off. It was at this point I could see everyone looking at me.
"What?" I asked "is there something on me?"
"Lydia are you doing any magic?" Allison asked me with worry in her face.
"No why. What's happening?" Still confused I started to stand up and that's when I felt it. My nose was bleeding. More than normal when I do any magic.
"Call Bonnie. Now. I have to go up stairs and clean up. Scott will you get grab some clothes out of my room please and bring them to my bathroom?" I say heading for the stairs, ally called Bonnie and Scott started to follow me.
"No Scott I'll do it." Stiles said he grabbed my arm and walked me up stairs.
"Stiles let go your hurting my arm."
"I'm sorry Lyd's, what do you want to wear? Shorts, leggings, shirt, hoodie, dress? What do you want?
"I want you to chill out just grab my grey hoodie, and my back Nike shorts. And come in her don't just throw them at me." I yell from my bathroom.
"Okay here." He walked in and I got in to the shower not running I changed and walked out. I put my hair in a messy bun, I walked over to the sink the blood ad stopped running down my face. Stiles turned me around by my hips and faced me to him. He put his hand on my cheek. He started to lean in and I thought he was going to kiss me. I can't do this I thought. Not right now not yet. Not so close to. He didn't he put his four head in mine.
"Are you okay?" He asked.
"Yes, I am now. You have to not freak out when this stuff happens to me stiles. I'm gonna be okay." He pulled away after that. He took two steps back.
"Yeah I know it just you know I umm yeah. I'm gonna head down stairs. I love you lyds."
"No not like that. Please." He came back, kissed my four head and walked out of the bathroom. I stood there for a while.

There was a fern in the corner of my bed room. I had thought maybe I should try some magic to see if I still have it. I said the spell in my head as I moved my fingers. The leaves and vines grew out word. Hitting the floor making there way to the bathroom door. I smiled a little I still had it. Malia was now standing in my door way.
"You're kinda a freak you know that. You can tell when death is coming and you scream about it. Then all of the sudden you have a friend from the middle of nowhere teach you how to be a witch. You can kill people with your scream and your "powers" that's cute."

Still saying the spell in my head I quickly make the plant go back to normal. Is it on my bed an stair at her blankly. I hate you is the only thing I can think. She falls to the ground screaming in pain. I could hear stiles and Scott run up the stairs and run to her side.

"Lydia what the fuck are you doing? Stop." Scott growled.
"Lydia you're hurting her." Stiles added
"I'm not doing it, I promise." I pleated, she can't be doing this just to fuck with me that's not fair. I'm gonna kill her I swear to god. I'm gonna-"
"Breathe I know you're not doing it."
"Malia stand up this isn't a joke. Stiles get ahold of your damn girl friend before I actually let Lydia hurt her. As for you do this again and your in your own I will let no pack ever claim you. I'll make your life hell." Scott has never been this mean before. To anyone.
"Sorry I'm just trying to have some fun." Malia said as she walked out of my room. Scott soon followed as I heard Allison's hand connect with Malia's face.
"Lyds she's going to leave and so is everyone else do you want me to stay?" Stiles said as he sat down on my bed.
"You can if you want, but you thought I was hurting her. That hurts me more than anything, is that what you really thing of me Stiles really? I wouldn't do that, and out of any person is the world I would have thought you knew that. It hurts." I could hold back the one year that fell. The back of my throat started to burn again and my face was feeling hot. He put his hand on my face again and I felt everything around me disappear.
"I'm staying, no lies to her. No Scott covering up for me. Okay?" He said as he pulled me closer to him. We where side by side now. I rested my head on his shoulder. He wrapped his arm around my back. After a few moments I could here Ally yell from down stairs that everyone was gone and she was leaving with Scott. After the door shut stiles pulled me to where I was sitting in his lap facing him. I was hesitant of this and I saw it in my face I guess because he then said, "it's not like that lyd's just sit and lay on my shoulder. Your shaking, just hold me and I'll hold you."

We sat like that for what felt like hours. My guess is that I eventually fell asleep and he tucked me in and then climbed in with me. I woke up at 3:47 am. I was curled into his chest his arms completely around me I had never felt more safe, and then the knock at the door.
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Hi again it's been forever I know I'm sorry and I hate myself for it. I sat down and started this one. This one means a lot to me for many reasons I'll keep to myself but. Thank y'all for reading and continuing to read😁
-Brandi💛