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chapter 2

Another day of hell...another day of being constantly sick. Being scared.

The first 4 classes before lunch went about the same as normal. Sitting in classes, sick as a dog. I can here The other class mates talking about me. "Whispering" and laughing to each other.

I just wanna cry.

I don't know why I'm like this, I've put up with kinda stuff my while life in school. And every year it gets worse...

I cant take it, I want to go home but I have to go to my classes and I don't want to disappoint my parents and make them worry, they don't know about the issues...and they aren't ever going to know. It's better that way.

*le time skip*

When lunch rolls around I get my serving of the school sludge on my plate and go sit in the corner by myself.

I wear my black guitar printed hoodie, my Jean's and boots, and my camo ball cap. Its 12 o'clock.

I pick at my food, not even taking a bite of it, eating this early makes me sick, I usually eat when I get home. The last time I went to the doctor I had lost 20 lbs, I told them it had been eating normally and all. Even though its not the truth.

I push my tray away from me and put my book on the table. I'm currently reading throne of glass. Books are what make me smile anymore. Sometimes I pretend I'm the girl in the book that the guy likes, that the guy save, and keeps from harm.

That the boy loves...

I have my head down reading, trying to drown out all the noises of the lunch room. I can feel my anxiety rising again, I can hear every little sound and its driving me nuts. I put my hood up and put my hands over my ears to try and shut out the noises, but it doesn't work, they just get louder and louder and louder.

Tears are rolling down my face now, I pick up my book quickly and speed walk out the cafeteria doors and head outside to a bench underneath an old willow tree. My chest is inflating in short ragged breaths. My face is scrunched in a painful look with tears running off my chin.

All the sudden I feel someone sit down next to me and put a hand on my shoulder. I just scramble to the other side of the bench staring wide eyed at the person who touched me. It was Cole. His face was full of sadness. I was still breathing raggedly and crying.

"Josie, it's just me, Cole, it's ok....come here.." he said. Gently. Ge had his arms open for a hug. I just stared at him.

Then slowly I scooted over to his open arms. Once I got close enough he grabbed my shoulders and hugged me to his chest. I gasped at the sudden action, frozen in place. Tears still...running down my face, now soaking his hoodie. His hoodie smelled so good. It was comforting.

He hugged me tightly, his face was nuzzled in my brown curly hair. His one hand rubbing gently up and down my back while the other rested on my lower back.

"I don't know what's wrong josie, but I want to help you, please...tell me whats wrong,....I.....I care.about you and it hurts to see you upset." Cole said into my hair.

My hands were pressed to his chest, and my forehead leaning on his chest. When he said those words I broke down crying even more, i hugged him as tight as i possibly could, just crying my eyes out.

A few minutes after I finished crying, Cole put his fingers under my chin and tilted my head up to look at him, I knew I looked like a mess so I closed my eyes.

"Open yours eyes doll." He said with his deep beautiful voice, it sent shivers through me. I bit my lower lip and opened my eyes to look at him, his face was.so close to mine. I yawned and my eye lids drooped.

Cole smiled and said "you wanna to my place and get away from here?"

My eyes widened at the thought of being able to get away from the school, one of the triggers of my anxiety. I nodded my head vigorously.

I stood up and suddenly got dizzy and started to stumble. Cole caught me and picked me up bridal style. I blushed furiously. Cole.smiled at me. I just hid my face in his chest.

He walked us over to his truck and sat me in the passenger side door and buckled me up, when he leaned over me to buckle me up I felt the rippling muscles under his shirt, making me blush furiously.

When he moved I looked away so he wouldn't see my blood red face.

He walked over and got in the truck and started up the engine, we pulled out of the parking lot (Cole is a senior and I'm a junior). Cole let me pick the music which made me a Little happy, I chose Johnny cash, and we both started singing along. I was.just a singing my heart out not even remembering that I wasn't alone, when the song ended I looked over and Cole was.just starring at me with a blank face.

I started freaking out again "oh my goodness, I'm so sorry I didn't even realize I was singing. I'm sorry I said looking away and picking at my fingers, it's a little fidget of mine.

Cole put his hand on my thigh. "No...you sounded beautiful josie, you sound like an angel. I loved it." I just stared at him...again.. geesh I pribly look stupid with all the times I've just been staring at him today.

I had this feeling in my chest I've never experienced before. I didn't know what it was. I was...weird.

I just gave him a small smile.,I rolled down the window and took my hat off and my let my hair out if my pony tail.

I let my hair just flow in the air. When we got to his house he walked my inside and we walked up to his bedroom....

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Sorry it's written so bad, next chapter is coming soon. See ya yall