Her eyes lit up when I told her that I was going to spank her. Just knowing that I was giving Cas, what she craved, made me hard. However, I think what made me even more excited, was the fact that she wanted it more than I did. I'd be lying if I were to say that a small part of me didn't still enjoy all of this, but at the end of the day, I just wanted her, any way I could get her. My heart wasn't in it the way it used to be. I fucked up and broke my own rule, I developed feelings.
I walked over to the bed and sat down. Patting my lap, I grinned at her. "Take that off and get over here."
She managed to rid the smile from her face, but we both knew that she enjoyed me telling her what to do. Staring at her, I grinned, rubbing a hand over the stubble on my chin. I watched intently as she stripped. Cas moved closer, climbing onto the bed and positioning herself across my lap, just like she had done so many times before.
I glanced down her smooth, pale skin, rubbing the palm of my hand over her bare ass a few times before giving her a hard slap. I then caressed the perfect red imprint on her right cheek before switching to the other one. The slaps became more intense as time went by and I began kneading her tortured flesh before gliding my fingers between her slightly parted legs.
Grinning like the devil when I heard her whimper, my fingertips caressed her overheated skin. I teased along her slit before pulling back and delivering yet another very sharp smack. I pushed my fingers in deeper and she immediately began pushing back, but I was already tired of this game.
Still fully clothed, I had a beautiful, naked woman lying face down across my lap, and I was edging her. This should have kept me occupied longer, but I wanted her. With one final slap, I told her to get up. She was just about to kneel in front of me, when I stopped her. "Uh uh uh... We already played that game." I insisted, unbuttoning my shirt.
Moving closer, I pressed my body against hers, wrapping my arm around her waist and walking her backward to the bed. When her legs touched the mattress, I leaned forward, forcing her back on the bed. I pushed my knee between her legs, forcing them open.
Leaning over her, I kissed her neck softly while trailing my fingers down her body, between her breasts and over her belly, all the way down to where she wanted my touch the most. I gently caressed her freshly shaven skin with my fingertips, but not with enough pressure to do anything except tease. "You belong to me, Cas. You know that, right? Forever."
"Yes." She was desperately trying to force her hips up, but to no avail. Over and over I teased her, plunging my fingers into her, pumping them in and out, only to stop and make her cry out in frustration and then beg for more. This was what she wanted, but I was struggling to keep going. I wanted more than this, I craved all of her. I needed to go to bed and wake up with her in my arms in the morning. I wanted the parts of her that were perfect, along with her flaws and feisty attitude. I meant what I said when I told her that she was mine. Biting her neck, I applied a little more pressure to her clit. "You ready to cum for me Cassie?"
"Yes, please." She begged, and even though she had been teased, we both knew she could keep going. She wasn't really ready to give in yet, but I was. Without a single word, I reached down to unbutton and unzip my jeans. I pushed them, along with my underwear, down my legs as quickly as possible. She glanced up at me with the look of confusion on her pretty face. I kicked them off my feet and knelt on the bed, pulling Cas on top of me. She didn't fight it at all, giving me a few firm strokes before sliding all the way down on top of me.
Both of us groaned in unison at the skin to skin contact. This was far from the hair pulling, skin biting, rough sex she probably envisioned for tonight, but I didn't care. I had to prove to her that there was more to us than just a simple agreement.
My hands slid up to her hips, gripping them tightly. She attempted to rock back and forth, moving with me as I thrust my hips up, but I firmly held her in place. I realized that I may be holding onto her too tightly and released my tight grip. Our bodies wound tighter and tighter until she came apart on top of me, quivering.
I didn't hesitate to flip us over and my hips picked up the pace when she dug her nails into my skin. The pain only added to the sensation and I couldn't hold back anymore. I let go, pulsing like mad until I finally collapsed on top of her.
Eventually, I moved over so that I didn't crush her. I stared at her for the longest time, her eyes opening and closing like she was deep in thought. Finally, I made myself speak. "I don't really know how to do this, it's been so long."
"Do what?" She shifted, relaxing into a comfortable position that allowed her to look at me.
"A relationship. I mean, I know what to do and what not to do, but..." I sighed, chewing on my bottom lip while I chose my words carefully. "This isn't a game Cas, it's real and when feelings get involved, it changes everything. I'm usually not one to be in a committed relationship, but at some point it has to change. I trust you and I hope you feel the same way about me."
I leaned forward, wrapping my fingers around her throat and giving her a slow passionate kiss. Sadly, she just had to ruin the moment. "I trust you, but I don't want to talk about this right now. What's happening here, you used to drag it out for hours!" All I wanted was for her to open up to me, to reassure me and shut out all of my insecurities, but she only wanted to focus on the sex. Was I making a mistake, continuing to push her into something she didn't really want?
