I Didn't Plan On Loving You

Think about it

I'm so sorry guys, How rude of me not to introduce myself.

Hello, I'm Eren Jeager. The not so important person in the world, I'm mostly ignored by most people including my Father but I'm not gonna go into detail much.

The only people who hang out with me are Armin, Mikasa, Sasha, Connie, Marco and Horseface..-ahem I mean jean, and even though they hang out with me I still was unsure if they just did it out of pity.

I was always bullied but they didnt know that.they teachers did nothing when they saw the people who beat me but it still shook them to just up and leave me.

I never told anybody of this, and if anyone asked, I just tell them that i stopped another fight.Which made them only worry of me or even scold me for doing it.

Every at school would never share a look at me and if they did they would scowl or ignore me, like I was invisible. I only wanted this year to end, and perhaps leave the country if I could.

But my Fath-..Sorry, Grisha wouldn't allow it. He doesnt care if I would leave cause he says I'm a waste of trash, but he would never give me money or food for me to survive alone. I have jobs but everytime I get paid, Grisha would ask of my money and force me to give it to him otherwise he'd beat me up and just take it.

His an alcoholic, everytime I got home after school I would see him passed out on the couch with a bottle in his hand. The place trashed and bottles everywhere.I always cleaned after him and would leave water and advil before going to bed, I didn't want him to beat me up when he wakes up.

I already had to wear long sleeves and hoodies to school, which caught most attention to the bullies making the beating worse.But as time passed, I've gotten used to it.I didn't cry and scream everytime I got hit anymore, it did made them more angry and started to hit me harder but soon enough they got bored and decided to leave.

It wasn't exactly the same with Grisha though, his beating were the worst, he wouldn't stop until I begged him to or I was passed out. He would sometimes hit me with the bottles or throw me to the floor and start to kick my torso which caused me some broken bones or breathing difficulty.But after every beating hed leave to the bar or the strip club and not come back for days.

I was always left alone, with no onw to call for help.There was my friends but, I didnt want to be somebodys burden.Grisha always said it was my fault that Mom died, and I believed him. If I wasnt born, my mom would still be alive.Healthy and alive.But here I am, I waste of breath and money. I took my mothers life.And if I could die and bring her back, Id do it in an instant.

Nothing matterd most to me than my mother at that time.But now, I dont know what mattered most to me. One person made me confused of my decisions in life.And that person was Levi ackerman.

As I stood at the edge of the bridge ready to jump, he ran and grabbed me.Pulling me into his arms as he yelled at me, tears running down his face.I only watched in shock in his arms as he glares and continued to tell me why I shouldn't end my life.Why I shouldn't do such idiotic madness he said.But what most shocked was when he said.

'God dammit brat! Don't you dare try that again, you may want to die but i don't. I'm not gonna watch someone I care about die in front of me.Not again. You fucking idiot! Don't you dare leave me, please I'm begging you Eren..Don't leave me'

those words left me frozen, he cared about me when no one did.I only cried and hugged him back. I promised myself back then, that I'd never leave levi and make him happy, no matter what.But what I didn't expect, was for me to fall in love with him.

I still was by his side until now but, he became distant with me and I didn't know why. There was one day, I called for him in the hallways but he only glanced at me before leaving with the populars.I never really understood why, and just thought that maybe he didnt hear me but next day.He was a totally different person, he didnt wear his glasses or his plain outfit, no he wore the same jackets of the basketball team and he even changed his hair and started wearing contacts.