Once again...Life goes on

Something Is Wrong...

"For the first time in my life I felt so loved by someone that isn't mom or dad;

I felt so good, so satisfied; so complete;

for the first time in my life I trusted someone other then myself, I was able to tell him everything, he was always there for me;

I just loved him, NO! I ADORED HIM;

he was my everything since I met him, and now he, being in love with me just made things all better

I was able to stand tall in front of anything, no matter what; but I was weak when it comes to him, it seems cheesy I know, but it is how much I loved him;"

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Since the day I opened up to Alec, I feel different, I never talked about him, not after what he did to me 

I feel different, bringing back his memory, after all what happened between us, We were really great couple,

I am afraid, I might not be able to tell him more, I just,.....

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 "Morning" I said excitedly to my friends,

"Hi Amy how are you today?"samantha said, she is one of the nicest people in this university and let me say, the smartest

"I am fine, Um... have you seen Noah?" I asked shyly

"No" she giggled "He is late,weird" she continued

"Yeah, weird" I said worried, he never let me wait that much not after he told me that he loves me, hope nothing bad happened with him

I was waiting ll the day, he didn't show up, 

I was sure there is something wrong going with him...

After class I tried to contact him, but nothing,..

I couldn't sleep that night, he never done such thing, 

A whole week passed with out me knowing a thing about him

I was really worried,  I was stray all day long, couldn't pay attention during classes

the only thing that was on my mind was HIM HOPING HE WAS OK

Saturday morning

"I am sorry, I really am I was stray " I said apologizing to someone I accidentally hit while walking

"It's Ok, Oh Um, Amy?" he said surprised

"Jake! Thank God I saw you, tell me where is Noah? Is he Ok?" 

"Calm down, he, he is,  just fine," he replied with uncertainty in his voice

I tried to look in his eyes searching for the truth, he looked away as if he was avoiding eye contact with me

"Are you lying at me?" I narrowed my eyes looking at him waiting for a truthful answer

"Amy; he is Ok; he is just tired" he put his hand on my shoulder in a friendly way "Just give him some time"

and just before he walked away I said "Say hi to him and tell him that I am really worried about him; and that his friend is a big liar and" I was crying, I couldn't control my tears they were falling down "I love him Jake; please tell him I need to see him"

He freaked out seeing my tears "I will" he wanted to comfort me but he just couldn't stand looking at me in tears so he just went away.

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