Sweet Nothing

Nanay

You are the most beautiful woman...

Even if you stink because you cannot take a bath everyday.

Even if you walk strangely because of suffering from a severe stroke.

Even if you cannot talk straightly because you cannot control the other half of your body.

You are the kindest woman...

Because you took good care of me.

You love me as if I was your own daughter.

You gave everything to us, your grandchildren.

You sacrificed alot just to see us happy.

I can still remember how you would laugh enthusiastically everytime I pose different angles because like I what always told you, I wanna be a model someday. You never objected because somehow, despite of me being physically incapable of being such...you still believed in me, Nay.

When I was maybe five or six, I would visit you ever sunday and we always have fun harvesting in your farm. I wouldn't forget how we'll smile at each other every time we finished cooking what we harvested. I haven't told you that those are the most precious childhood memories I cherished.

I wish I can go back to that day. I wish I can spend another lifetime with you. It just sucks that I thought, I have accepted it. I thought I wouldn't take it hard if I found out about your death because we somehow accepted it.

But heck, Nay I can't.

I miss your smiles. I miss how you played with me when I gave you a bath because you can't do it on your own. I miss holding your hand every time you need to go to the comfort room. I miss your simple way of looking at me because I know that you never judged me. You loved me for who I am.

I wish I can give you a hug but I can't. What I can do is just look at you as you lay on your casket. You don't know how I badly want to scream but I controlled myself. I know you hate noise but you did loved me even if I am noisy.

Nay, it's the end of your journey and hardships. I hope that you are happy now wherever you are. I know that Mamay (Lolo) will take good care of you up there. Please say my hello to him and tell him that I'm trying to be a good girl so that you too will be proud of your eldest grand daughter.

I love you nay, you are the best Grandma in the world!

Love,

Maine

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Sorry for the typos, I'll edit them soon.