Late Night Thoughts

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*trigger warning* there are mentions of the following: self harm, suicide, anxiety attacks.

It stares at me
A gleaming piece of silver
The feel of it makes me shiver
The sharp edge running across my skin in quick strokes
It'll just scratch me
A scratch
A scratch won't hurt. Right?
A scratch turned into a sting
A single drop of red coming to the surface...
The attacks came then
Different sides of my mind
Yelling and colliding
Twisting and turning
I can't breathe.
My hands grab at my throat
My eyes are watering
Oh wait
Those are tears
My sobbing silent from lack of air
This leads to choking
My body convulsing
Tremors And shakes fill my bed as I try to call someone
Anyone
The dry heaving is next
Between each deep inhale
Comes the upchuck of the air
My body cant take this
Black spots fill my vision
Was all this worth
One
Relapse.