The Forbidden

Chapter 6

I roll out of bed and head to take a shower. My black t-shirt hits the floor, along with my blue basketball shorts and my undergarments. Kaylyn went to the park with my mom early this morning, so I am going to class for the first time in three weeks.

My hair falls around my shoulders as I take it out of the bun, and I get into the shower. Dave is all I can think about. After I am clean, I get out and head to my dresser wrapped in my towel, and my hair wrapped in a seperate towel.

What should I wear today?

I open my top drawer and pull out my sky blue bra and matching panties. Next, I open the second drawer and pull out my long-sleeve white blouse. In the third drawer, I pull out my high-waisted, short navy blue skirt with little white birds on it that comes just past mid-thigh.

After getting dressed in those, I pull on my favorite purple socks and my black combat boots. As for my hair, I brush it and fishtail braid it to my right side. The braid hangs a few inches below my breasts.

I don't wear makeup, so I am ready to go after all of that. My phone. I haven't checked my phone in over two weeks! When I pick it up I see that there are a bunch of missed calls and hundreds of texts from Nancy.

They all get deleted and I call her on my way out to my car. "Hey, Nancy! I am coming to class so wait for me outside." I tell her when she answers and hang up. I am so rude.

My metallic blue 2013 Mazda CX-5 is sitting in the driveway all alone. Her name is Stacie. I take my keys from the dish beside the door and slam the door behind me.

"I'm off to see the wizard, the wonderful wizard of Oz.." I sing to myself as I get in my car and start it up. In case you were wondering, this is Dave's old car. He is the one who named her Stacie.

My spirits are automatically lifted as I listen to his station and pull out of the driveway. I jam out to Train as I pull into the school and honk at Nancy.

"Where have you been hiding the last couple weeks? You had me so worried!" Nancy practically yells as I walk up to her. She wraps her arms around me and squeezes me tighter than I thought was humanly possible.

"I have been having a bad month." I tell her and pull her into the school and into the bathroom. "Class starts in a few minutes, we need to hurry. Unless you want to skip..." Nancy says, leaning up against the tile wall beside the mirror.

I stare at myself in the mirror. Shadows under my eyes show that I have been crying alot lately. "I need to get my life back together. My mom is gonna call Harvard tomorrow and find out if they have looked over my records yet." I tell her, pulling at my skirt to cover more of my legs.

"You look beautiful, as always. Stop trying to alter yourself." Nancy says. My heart stops. You look beautiful. You look beautiful. Dave used to tell me that. Used to. I feel a chunk fall out of the wall that I built around my heart.

"Thank you." I manage to reply and look in the mirror one last time. Blue eyes stare back at me. I can see the pain and sorrow, the heartbreak and the loss. In an instant they change, and become a little more blue.

My chunk has been superglued back in place.

"Let's go." I tell Nancy and peel my eyes away from the beautifully sorrowful eyes staring back at me. Nancy looks at me worriedly, I smile at her to take away her worries.

We walk down the hall, arm in arm, and I think about Dave the whole time. Why is it so hard to keep my wall built, and in good condition?

When I stop thinking, I see that we are already sitting down in class and the teacher is lecturing us. I reach over to Nancy and take her purse from her side. She smiles at me from the side and waves me on to get whatever I want.