JOCK CRUSHED ME BACK -(NERD X JOCK)- ✔

3."I never knew"

WELL THIS IS KINDA A FILLER AND A SAD ONE AT THAT

  The same night
Day 0- Still night time

Andy POV
"What do you mean by that?" Isen said still wiping the tears from his eyes.
"Well I know I was mean to you in 6th grade and as well as a a bit of 7th but it's only because I didn't want to fall in love with you, I mean I did it's just... EUHHH!" I couldn't finish as for I was also crying. Isen pushed away from me but was still on my lap.
"I understand but I'd like to know why it-it's okay I won't get mad at you" Isen said looking me in the eyes.
"Okay, well in 6th grade the moment I saw you I, for some reason I had an affection towards you. I don't know why but... it was just there and I didn't want no one to know I was gay. So I bullied you every chance I got to push you away from me because I didn't want you to get taunted and bullied by my homophobic friends if we got together, well I at least think that. Also the fact that one of my childhood friends who was gay but... he soon had passed because he committed suicide. His name was Cory and I kinda liked him too and you reminded me a lot of him and I didn't want to get to close to you and then just lose you just like I lost him." I said trying my best to hold my tears in.

   Isen then hugs me and squeezes me tightly.
"It's okay as long as you're here I don't think I wanna go" Isen said then letting me go.
"But that's not all, you know how in 7th grade I was kinda being nice to you?"
"Yea" Isen responded.
"That was because I couldn't stand hurting you because it was like... hurting you didn't even bring me satisfaction but it brought me pain and pity towards myself. But my cowardly ass decided to start to do that at the end of the school year so there I thought there wasn't much of a chance to make it up to you and be friends. So, I decided to do that this year and... well, I knew you had a crush on me when I first saw you in 6th grade and we had made eye contact then you turned, I had instantly knew you were blushing." I said chuckling looking at Isen as he looked down blushing.

   "W-wow I honestly didn't know that this was how you were feeling but it's just...-" Isen stopped. "What-what is it?" I asked him holding his hand, but he then got off my lap yet letting me still hold his hand while he sat close to me leaning on my shoulder.
"It's just the names you and your friends called me, the times you guys hit me and I-I thought you hated me yet despite all of-all of t-that I stilled loved you." Isen said stuttering then bursting out in tears. "B-b-but I never knew that the pain I was enduring w-wasn't e-even compared to what you were not knowingly doing to yourself, and I feel as if it were all my fault." "But it's not it's just I was scared to love you, but now all of that has changed, I really...really wanna be with you." I said hugging him tightly and still holding his hand squeezing it.
"Is it okay if we cuddled for tonight?, I won't touch I swear." I said begging him. Isen chuckled.
"Yea it's okay just can you hold me towards your chest?" He said smiling.
"Of course" Andy replied

WELP THIS CHAPTER WAS PRETTY SHORT(sorry about that) BUT NEXT UPDATE WILL BE LONG...
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