Her Handwritten Letter||BTS FanFiction

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Last Breath(a few hours before found)

K

I looked at myself in the mirror one last time. I was never satisfied with the way I looked. My face was too round. My cheeks looked chubby. I had ugly, dark circles under my ugly brown eyes. My freckles made me look uglier. I also had a scar on my forehead. I sighed and looked away painfully.

I slowly filled the bathtub with warm water and got inside, still fully dressed. The feeling was new and not very comfortable. But nevertheless, I continued. I pulled up my black sleeves, revealing the barely visible white lines, and leaned my head back against the edge of the side of the tub.

I pulled out the sharp, clean blade and pressed it against my ugly, tan skin. Without thinking about it, I dug it into my flesh and pulled down.

Not across.

Down.

I made sure it was deep, even if the pain was unbearable.

I felt tears prick at my eyes and I blinked them away.

I almost hissed, but I refrained myself from doing so.

'At least be strong enough to do this.'

I felt my arm burn, pain exploding uncontrollably.

Blood began to spill into the water filled tub, turning the water pink instantly.

I made more cuts into the same arm before I repeated the same action onto the other arm.

I grabbed the bottle of pills from the edge of the tub where I left them and uncapped it.

I do not know what they were for, but I could only hope that they would do the trick.

I dumped the white contents in my mouth and swallowed. I almost choked on them but managed to get them all down.

I leaned back and waited for the effects to kick in.

I stared at the white ceiling.

As I did, I began to think of my friends.

I began to think about their smiles.

Their laughter.

Their happiness.

How good their life is now, compared to the past. When they told me what was going on, I felt immense pain in my heart. Seeing their broken state made me feel broken as well, even if I did not show it.