Lil' Lilly

{Chapter 10}

As I slip on my gown and mask I'm suddenly nervous? What? Why am I nervous?

I brush off the thought and open the door to my moms room and see that's she's passed out of exhaustion probably.

I glide over to the chair that is positioned across beside the bed and sit down.

I look up at the clock and see that it is already 1:30.

damn. time has flown by.

I quietly open my purse and dig through until I find some headphones and my iPod.

I plug them and scroll the songs I have until I find the perfect one for me.

Or Nah by Ty Dollar $ign

My inner black self is having it's moment right now.

I keep one in and the other out so I can hear if she wakes up or a doctor comes in.

I press play and lean my chair back and try to relax myself from all the dilemma in my life.

--

I'm slowly drifting off when I hear a sharp intake of breath followed by screaming.

I sling my earphone out and rush over to the side of the bed and bring my mothers fragile body into a comforting embrace trying to be gentle remembering where she was bruised.

"Mom it's ok sshhhh.." I rub my hand over her back like she used to do to me when I was younger.

"Lillian get the doctors..." she pauses to inhale a breath.

"I can't.. I can't.."

"You can't what mom??" I shake her trying to get her to spill.

"I can't.. I cant b-b-breathe." she finally gets out. I quickly rush out of the room and run the front desk of that floor and slam my hands on the counter.

"Doctor! Somebody my mother can't breathe! Someone help!!" I doctor quickly runs up to me and I motion down the hallway I came from.

"Room 524." He quickly nods and we dash down the hallway and to her door while the doctor runs in.

I try to run in after him and feel arms around my arms. I turn my head around to see and a nurse is ushering me backwards away from her room.

"Let me go you bastard!! I need to see her!!"

Then another doctor comes by and I freeze. Rodney. He walks past me and into the room and shuts the door behind him, in my face.

--

I walked, basically power walked to the room where nurses and patients look at me with concern.

I try to hold back my tears and I want to text Josh about that, but--

"Lily Wallflower?"

My thought is interrupted when I hear a nurse call my name. I look up and see she's standing in the doorway of my moms room.

"Yes that's me. Sorry, having a deep thought." I walked slowly over to the room.

"It's fine, sweetie." She stepped back and open the curtain, exposing my mother in her gown and iv's.

I quietly thank the nurse and run beside mother's arm.

"Mom are you ok? Are you feeling better? Is there anything I can do? Can I get you some wat-" I'm interrupted by my mothers laugh that fills up the room.

"Sweetie I'm fine. I'm fine." she assures me.

"Ok that's good." I let go of the breath I didn't know I was holding and grab my mothers hand.

"So how's the babbyyyyy??" I give her a qwerky grin and she chuckles lightly.

"They're doing great." she says as she runs her hand over her flat stomach and I laugh.

"Can you get me some water honey?" I nod and she smiles at me.

I get up and walk over to the cooler that is on the the floor on the wall across from her bed.

I open it and pull out a daSani and give it to my mom.

"So while I was coming up to your room I ran into somebody.. I ran into Uncle Rodney."

As soon as the words leave my mouth she spits her mouthful of water across the room and shrieks.

"WHAT?!" She throws her hands up in frustration but winces remembering the bruising across shoulders.

"Ye-" I'm interrupted again by the click of the door opening and a man walks in, followed by a nurse. Rodney.

well speaking of the devil.

"Get the fuck out of this room right now, she needs a new doctor this instant." I spit at the nurse and she nods in fear and scurries off down the hallway.

"Woah, Woah I'm not trying to cause any distress I'm just comi-"

"I said. Get the fuck out. NOW." I raise my voice on the last word and stand up and go to my mothers side.

"Sshhhh." My mother coos and rubs my back trying to calm me down.

The nurse walks in again and I shake my head in annoyance.

"What could you want now?" I say thru my teeth.

"Ma'am I'm going to have to ask you to leave visiting hours are over." she comes over to me yanking me up and grabbing my purse handing them to me.

"No!! Just give me 5 More minutes!!!!" I scream and she continues to drag me out of the room.

I try to lose her grip from my arm but she has it on there very tight to the point where she might fucking cut my circulation off.

"NO!!!!" I shout again as The nurse has me out of the room completely and Rodney makes his way to the door grinning evilly and shuts the door in my face.

The nurse lets my arm go and I bang on the door with my fists until I realize I'm not getting back in, no matter how hard I try.