a/n: this piece is a reply to a piece by aisicebby in one of her beautiful works of art, green tea. it's called tsu and it's one of her most profound pieces. go check it out, it would mean the world to her.
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when they say missing someone can come in waves,
i didn't believe them at first.
how could you possibly miss someone so much,
that it slaps you like the ocean when it's angry?
how is it possible to have such strong emotions, especially for someone who doesn't feel the same?
you told me that nothing's gonna change between us, despite what happened.
that we'd still be friends.
friends. i guess that's all we are.
that's all we'll ever be.
(and in all honesty i'm okay with that,
i wasn't looking for something more anyway.)
cool, i got a new friend.
who makes me feel like there's someone out there who still cares about me.
you care about me.
or rather, cared.
and now not anymore.
and now i can't believe the day has come,
that you're slowly drifting away.
just like the waves, they don't stay.
they might slap you, but they won't stay that way.
once the waves have calmed down, and i'm no longer drowning;
maybe only then will i realize that you weren't the one i needed.
i was the one i needed.
