My First and Last ➸ Park Jisung

27: Realizing her feelings

•—～++—～•KIM HAEWON•—～++—～•

"Wait! Lets stop by at that store!" Jia exclaimed and ran to the store she was talking about. Then the other 'kids' followed her. "You coming Haewon?" Jeno asked with that usual smile on his face, as I nodded at him.

We entered the store, it was full of various stuff toys. "I'm getting this Ice Bear plushie!" I can totally see Jia's smile even if I just heard her voice. "Moomin is that you?! I'm literally getting you, just wait up!" I saw Renjun rushed to the Moomin plushie and grabbed it like it was the last one.

"Aish look at these kids" Nana commented. He walked towards them with Jeno, when I looked around me, Chenle was already gone. And I was left with him, Jisung.

I saw him just standing there, unconsciously I ran my way to Jia.

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"Get me a Chocolate flavor please" Jia pouted at Nana, to my surprise he looked away. Something must be going on with him.

"Haewon-ah here's yours" Jeno handed me my Caramel ice cream and gladly took it from him. "Thanks!" I thanked and started eating my ice cream. But why do I feel like someone is staring at me?

I looked to my right, which turned out to be Jisung's direction. When I looked at him he wasn't even looking at me, maybe I'm just crazy or whatever. "Haewon!" I heard Jia's voice which made me to look at her. "Can you accompany me to the bathroom? Please?" She pouted, again, unexpectedly I heard someone cough, it was familiar though, it sounds like... Jaemin?

"Oh~'kay?" She immediately pulled me which almost made me drop my ice cream. "Yah why are you pulling me!" I complained while trying to finish my ice cream. We reached the bathroom and she faced me.

"Tell me, you are avoiding Jisung, aren't you?" I was taken back a little, am I? "Ah! You really do! But why?"I nervously ate the last bit of the ice cream, reached for my phone and gave it to her.

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"What?! Why did you do this? You hurt his feelings, Kim Haewon!" She shook her head while I lowered mine. "I know, and I want to say sorry for it, but I can't, I'm too nervous" I'm now fidgeting with my fingers.

"Nervous? Do you perhaps... have feelings for him?" She's now looking at me with her teasing face. "W-What? N-No!" She started laughing which made the other people look at her, while I'm looking at them with my apologetic expression, sorry this girl right here is crazy.

"Yeah right you don't" After laughing she looks like in deep thought right now. "Ah by the way, I heard Jisung is close with a girl in school" My eyes widened and stepped back, while I felt something, is this... jealousy?

"W-Who?" Why do I even feel this? I'm sure I don't feel anything towards him! "Oh you're curious now? I thought you don't have feelings for him?" She chuckled, yeah why are you curious? Seriously why? "You know, you can't lie with your feelings, and its bad to lie as well" She smiled innocently at me.

"Be honest with yourself"

Now, while I think of it. While thinking of Jisung, I still do feel my cheeks heat up. Our memories together, those happy moments that made me sometimes look away and my heart race. But, I hurt his feelings by telling him that his confession is a joke, how stupid can I be?

"You're right, Jia. I should have been more honest with myself, I-I do like h-him. But how... do I... tell him this? After what I told him last night" I looked down and felt her hand pat my head.

"Hmm! Since we're friends, I'll help you" She smiled at me. Friends, I hope you'll stay, as my 'friend' Jia. "What do you have in mind?" I asked.

"Since new year is near, lets go to the Namsan tower, then there, you'll confess to him and say your apology as well if you want" That sounds like a good idea, I guess.

"I'll suggest this to Mark so he can tell the others about it" I nodded and started fidgeting with my fingers again.

I hope it'll go well.