Toxic lies - OumaSai

devilish charm.

Kokichi gave a devilish smirk.

"K-Kokichi.. maybe we should stop this before things get out of hand." I murmured, even if I was in a decency of pleasure, I still didn't think this was such a great idea.

"but shuiiiichii!!" he cried out. "you were just begging me to please you with my mouth!!" he smirks, knowing that his mind games are getting to me.

"Kokichi, please; I really don't think this is too much of a good idea! we could get caught or-" he cut me off with his finger, pressing against my lips.

"so what?" he simply said, acting as if it was no big deal if we did get caught. "who cares if we get caught?"

I removed his finger from my mouth; "I care, Kokichi. because unlike you, I have a reputation." I was enraged, almost at least. How could you not care about getting caught? how low do you have to be to not care about what people think of you? maybe its just me, though..

"low..." that's all I heard from his mouth. "say, Shuichi?"

"Y-Yes?"

he now sat crisscross on the bed, and so did I. "say, do you despise me?"

I thought about his question for a minute. why would he ask such an odd question? despise is such a strong word as well.... why would I.. despise Kokichi? I mean yeah, he's a liar and he's an ass at times, but that's about it. he's never really done anything to me either, so why would I possibly hate, rather despise him? I literally have no reason what so ever to despise him. "no, I don't despise you. why would I?" I ask, hopefully getting a truthful answer.

Kokichi was in some sort of gaze, he looked... almost sad? scared? "ko-" trying to reach out to him, he interrupted me.

"goodnight, Shuichi." is all he said, soon putting his scarf back on then heading to the bathroom.

... not knowing what had happened, i put all my cloths back on and soon head out of kokichi's dorm to my own. i wonder what had happend to kokichi and why he sent me out of his room so soon? i was clueless.

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'why did I do that?' I ask myself. why did I push him away from me? god. I always do this shit to myself, I... I'm so sick of myself. sick of talking. breathi-

"Kokichi? are you in there?" I know that awkward, soft toned voice..

"Kiibo? Why did you come here?" I said as I got up from my bed, opening the door to see Kiibo out there, as expected.

"oh, I was just wondering if you'd like to come downstairs and make sweets with all of us?"

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! YOU'RE JOKING, RIGHT?" as much as id like to go down there and help out and spend time with everyone, they all hate me and I don't need any of that stress in my life right now. just laugh it off, Kokichi...

"ah, no, I wasn't joking. I thought it would be a good idea if you came down there and spent time with everyone?"

...."uhm.."

"is there something wrong, Kokichi?" he looked at me, puzzled.

"I'm quite frustrating, right?" I said without thinking.

"huh? Kokichi, what're you saying?"

"nothing, I'm fine. sorry keeyboy! I lost my composure for a second!" I giggled... g-giggling, yeah...