Ain't It Fun

Chapter 15

*TAYLOR'S POV*

Taylor rolled over in his bed hoping to find his baby girl next to him, like you had been in his dream but like usual the bed was empty and cold. He let out a sigh and slowly opened up his eyes. Taylor looked at the clock that was sitting on the night stand. That told him that it was only 10 am. He had slept horribly, not being able to get you off his mind. He had messed up so badly and couldn't think of a way to fix it.

Hitting the button to turn on the radio, the first thing Taylor heard was the chorus of Amnesia by 5 Seconds of Summer. He had never been able to understand why someone would want to wake up with Amnesia but in this moment he understood why. He wished that he could forget all of the little things that you did and how broken you had looked when you found him with that other girl. He wished that he could forget all of the good times you two shared and all of the things that you had done together. He wanted to forget the way you looked wearing his shirt that was way too big for you, he wanted to forget the first time he saw you in that little black dress he loved so much. He just wanted to forget you at this moment but he couldn't and he knew he never would be able too. You meant way too much, to be forgotten.

It had been a week since Taylor told you to decide whether you loved him more than you hated what he did. He hadn't heard anything from you and he didn't bother saying anything. You wanted space and thats exactly what he was giving you. Taylor was miserable, he was ashamed of how stupid he was and didn't understand why he so impulsively messed everything up.

Taylor got up out of bed and made his way down the large staircase. He grabbed himself a bottle of water and sat down at the table. He thought about what he was going to do today but he came up with nothing. He had locked himself away in his house for the past week not wanting to go out and face the reality of it all. He didn't want to go out and see all of the couples around having fun and doing things that couples do. Dillon had tried to take Taylor out one night but he had refused. Dillon had eventually given up on trying to make Taylor happy. Taylor was always one for the parties and for him to pass one up was a rare occurance and could really show that something was wrong.

There was one time that Taylor had some interactions with the outside world. 4 days after you told him to give you time, the girl whom he had cheated with came to his house. She begged him to let her make him feel better, to let her help him forget about you. He told her to f*ck off and to never come near him again. He didn't want to forget about you or feel better about what he did because it will never be right.

Taylor had even gone as far as ringing up your best friend, Christine and asking about you. He tried his hardest to give you space but it was so difficult when you were the one he really wanted. Taylor sat around doing a whole lot of nothing, one time he decided to go shopping. This resulted in him buying an extremely expensive car that he didn't need but it made him a little happier.

Opening his phone, Taylor went straight to twitter not knowing how bad of an idea that was. On twitter there were a ton of the same four pictures... Pictures of you with Calum Hood. Taylor looked over each individual picture, and his emotions began to kick in, completely blinding him of any reason.

Taylor stared at the picture for a long time.  "She doesn't love me..." Taylor mumbled. He got up from the table, completely blinded by the heartbreak and pain he felt. He padded over to the fridge swinging it open. He glanced around the fridge, moving somethings until he had found what he had wanted. He switched out his bottle of water for a bottle of beer. He downed it quickly before grabbing another and then another. He found his keys walked out the door of his house. "She doesn't love me anymore." He slurred, attempting to walk in a straight line to his brand new Lamborghini.

"She picked Calum." Taylor was angry, not angry at you but angry at himself.

He was angry at the fact that everytime he had something good, he felt like he didn't deserve it. When he felt this way is when he did stupid things so he could prove to himself that he really didn't deserve it. Taylor pushed everything and everyone away that mattered to him most because he had in his mind that he wasn't worthy of them or their affection.

He turned the key in the ignition bringing the car to a roaring start. He took another sip of the beer before tossing the empty bottle into the back seat. What number beer that was that he just threw into the back seat, he didn't know... He lost count after six...

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You were having a lazy day and with your good friend Calum, he was your friend and nothing more. You hadn't know him for the longest time but you enjoyed hanging out with him. He was such a real person, and so down to earth. The two of you sat on the couch watching Silver Linings Play Book. You loved that movie for so many reasons and decided that Calum just had to watch it.

The movie came to an end and you turned to Calum criss-crossing your legs into a pretzel as you faced him on the couch. "Wasn't it good?!" You asked happily.

He laughed and nodded, "Yes it was." he told you, his accent thick.

You glanced down at your phone seeing it buzz and Taylor's face appear. You hit the ignore button and shook your head. You wanted space and you weren't really sure what he didn't understand about that. You needed time to figure out whether you could ever trust Taylor again. You didn't have the time to deal with someone who was going to hurt you this way.

The phone began to buzz again and Calum furrowed his brow. "Do you need to get that?" he asked, wondering if the reason you were ignoring the call was because he was there.

You let out a sigh and picked up the phone. "Taylor, I thought I told you I wanted space." you spat into the phone.

"This isn't Taylor, ma'am." a voice told you from across the line.

You furrowed your brow at the unfamiliar voice. "Who is this?"

"Taylor has been in an accident and you were the first person in his phone to notify."

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I'm so sorry it's taken me forever to update this. I just wasn't feeling it but here is the next part! Hopefully I will update it again soon :)