Dear Diary...

Part 7.

Dear Diary...

February 24th,2017

I know I just wrote yesterday...but I have to write about what just happened to me. No one would ever believe me if I said anything. Also, I can't say anything. But holy shit...this is insane. She WANTED to kiss me. Like that wasn't my choice...she did that it was all her. God, my heart beat like a drum. Did I react the right way? Did I do the right thing? What would her mother say? What would both her parents say? I have to talk to Y/n about this. Flash and his friends would kill me if they found out I kissed Micheal's sister. Well I didn't, she kissed me. She wanted to. I still can's believe she would do that. And what she said. "You don't know how long I wanted to do that for" Like she wanted to kiss me. ME. I can't. Why me? Or-well I can see why. But WHY? Is it because of the painting. Or because we are friends? Why? Is it because I'm Spiderman? It probably is. Who wouldn't want to have Spiderman as their boyfriend...Not that I think she's my girlfriend because she kissed me but you know. Is it bad that my feelings for her are stronger now? But her lips were so soft. Makes sense, they looked soft...N-not that I've stared...I-I mean looked. Dammit. Ok, I admit, I have stared. But she's so pretty, I can't help myself sometimes. That's why I painted her. Capture that beauty.

In Y/n's Writing

I kissed Peter Parker...Peter fucking Parker. I would be killed by my brother for this. But he's locked away because of Peter. I mean... How should I feel here? Yes, I like Peter. The whole reason why I kissed him is that I like him. But Micheal would kill him, My parents would kill him if they knew he was Spiderman. Why didn't he tell me? He said people would hurt me but one of those people was my brother...my brother never hurt me. I look at that painting all the time. It blows me away every time I look. How could someone like Peter make such a spitting image AND be Spiderman? This is insane. So much is happening. Wait. I can't be Peter's girlfriend. It'll ruin me. He's sweet, kind, and a hopeless romantic. But also an outcast to everyone else in school. They don't see it. They don't see what I see. I can't date him...I can't...it'll ruin me.