Dear Diary...

Part 11.

Dear Diary...

June 24th

I've been thinking a lot. About what Y/n said. I'm still confused. Does she love me? She didn't sound like it a couple months ago. But now she does? She got hurt to keep my identity from the wrong people. Jesus her arm was so cut up. I felt terrible. But what's worse is they know she knows me. Great. Whoever is out there is going to continue getting at Y/n...using her to get to me. Is it worth it? Do I just keep saving her over and over again? What do I do if I don't make it in time one day? God, I can't imagine losing her again. I just got to talking with her again. Do I even call her my love? I don't know. I'm so confused. She sounded like she loved me the other day...but she didn't back in February. She was in tears the other day. Because I didn't believe her. Do I believe her? Do I put my heart back together if she is just going to break it again? Who would I ask for these things? I could try to ask May. Maybe she'd know a thing or two. Or do I figure this out on my own? It's my choice whether I let the girl I truly love get a second chance. What if she breaks me...enough that I can't regain strength again?

-That Day-

"I don't know what you should do man," Ned sighed. "She broke my heart once already...what if she does it again?" "I don't know, Y/n doesn't seem like that type of person," Ned tried to convince Peter. He thought they'd be cute together. "Why are you so broken over it? She apologized didn't she?" "Eh-More less," Peter shrugged. "I say you get with her," "And if she hurts me again?" "Then you suck it up and move on," "It's a lot harder than it sounds Ned," "I still say you get with her," "Why?" "Peter she cried over you, she cried actual tears that you wiped off her cheek for you," Peter sat at his desk with his head in his hands. The phone at his ear. "Ned I don't know," Peter sighed. "Do you love her? Like truly love her," "Yes of course," "Then you'd forgive her...she did say she made a mistake," "What if this is all a trick?" "Go talk to her about it," "What? Ned, it's been two days since I last saw her that's too soon," "Well she's going away in a week so I don't know how long you have," "How do you know?" "Because I actually spoke to her before summer break...while you kept your distance," "Fine, I'll go to see her, maybe we can figure this out once and for all," Peter was frustrated. He loves her with all his heart but the last thing he wants is to take a bullet for the wrong person.

Back to his writing...

I'm insane for doing this. I don't know if I should. She hurt me. But I'd still take a bullet for her. What if she is tricking me? But if she's telling the truth then I'm the asshole for not believing her. Hopefully, this sorts things out. Between us. Before she goes away for the summer. Anyways, hopefully, this goes well, I'll write what happens in this book I guess.

-Peter