Realize | Irwin

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I watched Ashton as he drove to Cassie's house to drop us off. His jaw was clenched and he looked extremely angry.

No one in the car dared to break the horribly awkward silence until we finally pulled up at Cassie's house. Cassie immediately got out and said to me, "I'll wait for you inside." She didn't bother to wait for a reply and closed the door of Ashton's car and walked towards her front door.

I didn't move a muscle. Why? Because I couldn't. I was scared of Ashton right now, I always was when he got angry. He was extremely protective of the people he cared about.

Ashton was the first to break the silence. "Why were you talking to him?"

I replied with a little more force than I had intended, "He was talking to me!"

Ashton turned away from me and looked out the windscreen. "He shouldn't have been talking to you like that." He gritted through his teeth.

I began to defend Ryder, "He wasn't that bad! It was the alcohol talking, not him."

Ashton clenched his jaw. "Do you like him?" I turned away, knowing he was going to hate my reply. "Yes..." I cautiously answered. Ashton gripped the steering wheel, his knuckles turning white. "Why?! He is the biggest jerk that has ever roamed the world and he treats girls like garbage."

I instantly regret telling Ashton the truth. I yelled at him, "What is it to you? You're not my mother, so don't tell me who I can and can't like and talk to!"

Before he could say anything, I got out of the car, slamming the door behind me. I stomped to Cassie's door. As I opened the door to go inside, I didn't dare look back, but I heard his car drive away.

It was just Cassie and I at her house, and I didn't hear her so I assumed that she went upstairs to her bedroom, I walked up the stairs and walked into her room. I lazily fell onto her bed and let out a breath that I didn't know I was holding in. Cassie was sitting at her desk, on her phone and there was a comfortable silence in the room.

After a while, she broke the silence. "Do you want to talk about it?" She asked as she spun around in her desk chair and looked at me. I sat up and sighed. "I just wish Ashton would stay out of my business. It has nothing to do with him." Before I could continue speaking, Cassie cut me off. "He just doesn't want to see you get hurt, and besides, Ryder doesn't deserve someone like you."

I was starting to get annoyed with her, trash-talking Ryder. "Sure he is pretty cocky, but he can be a pretty nice guy. You just don't know him." I defended him.

I was getting sick of this conversation. I felt weak for liking Ryder, but I couldn't help it. He was definitely one of the hottest guys that has ever lived. His eyes were blue like the ocean, I felt like I could lose myself in them. His body was the definition of perfection. But I really hated myself for becoming another one of those girls that falls under his trap.

Although I seemed pretty calm at the party tonight, on the inside, I wasn't. There was a small part of my brain wearing a tin-foil hat screaming; "Do it Hayley, do it. You know you want to!" And then there was the sensible part of my brain, wearing a helmet, saying "No Hayley, don't make a bad decision like that."

My head was beginning to hurt. Partly because I was over thinking, partly because I could still hear the loud music from the party, ringing in my ears.

Before I could process anymore thoughts, sleep came over me.

Ashton's POV

I watched her slam the car door, and walk up to Cassie's house. I drove off, thinking of the things I could have done to that dickhead, Ryder. I hated him so much for talking to my Hayley like that. Ok, well Hayley wasn't exactly "mine" but I sure as hell wish she was.

I have known her for almost my entire life. And for around two years I have liked her as more than a friend. I just wish I could tell her the truth, but I can't because she is hopelessly beautiful and there is no chance that she would ever like me as much as I like her.

I pulled up in my driveway and sighed, my anger fading and sadness taking its place.

I fell asleep thinking of a time where I will be able to hold her, and call her mine. But then I realized, that time is either really far away, or nonexistent.

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Author's Note

Hey, so here's chapter three. Vote if you liked it. :)

Also, tell me what you think of Ashton's point of view. Should I do the POV's of other characters?

Oh, one more thing; what do you think of the cast? Do you imagine other actors/actress for the characters? Also, who do you imagine Josh as?

Ok, that's enough rambling, bye :)