Did guardian angels exist? How did they look like? Did they have wings or magical powers?
Until one fateful day, these thoughts had never graced your mind but now you knew better. Now, you knew guardian angels existed and your's was the one and onl...
I thought about writing two different letters for the two of you but I decided against it because I want there to be no more secrets between us.
You guys probably hate me, huh? I'm fine with that because I deserve that hate. I'm not sure how to say this but... I love both of you. Just in radically different ways.
Jungkook
Jungkook, I can't even begin to state the number of things I love about you. You're just so damn cute and adorable. Did you know I smile everytime I think about you? Not a day in my life goes without me remembering some moment with you. We had an awesome time together and those weeks where we roamed the city and were chased by your fans were the best in my whole life.
I remember how your ears would turn pink everytime you took my hand in your's, how you'd make all those lyric references to make me smile, how you'd stare at me when you thought I wasn't paying attention. I witnessed all your cute mannerisms that I had only seen in videos. I had the honour of being blessed by your bunny smile and graced by your very presence.
You don't deserve me, Jungkook, you deserve much more than what I can give you. I'm just a mere high school student with no qualifications, no skills, nothing. If I could, I would give you everything you wanted from me and even more but... I don't see you in the light that you see me. You don't know the number of nights I've stayed up trying to figure out why the hell my heart won't just fall for you. And I sincerely don't know either. Jungkook, you're so perfect. Like an angel who's been sent down from heaven to grace us lowly mortals.
You're so compassionate, caring and understanding. You never left my side even when I was a complete witch to you. You told me you loved me and I told you that I loved you too. That was the truth, I love you so, so much that I cannot show you how much I'm willing to do for you. If you wanted I'd give you any of my body parts. I don't deserve your love. I truly don't, so I ask just one thing of you don't forgive me.
Hate me, curse me, make a dummy of me and attack it. Just please don't forgive me before I forgive myself. I hope someday you can think of me without feeling regret, remorse or heartbreak. More over, I hope one day we can just meet and talk. Like friends. I'll love you even when you hate my very existence. I'm sorry.
Jimin
Jimin, god, I can't even think about you without crying. You were a complete asshole to me and I hate you for that. You left me every freaking day to go god knows where. Do you how insecure you made me feel? You made me feel like a useless piece of trash that's good for nothing.
Occasionally you'd show your cute side to me and I'd think "Yes, he's finally changing!" but then you'd go back to the inconsiderate person who let me live with him for absolutely no reason.
I used to see your, that is BTS', videos and in all of them you were a caring guy who any girl would be lucky to have. Yet in front of me you morphed into this cold-hearted bastard who couldn't care less about me.
Why were you like that? Almost, bipolar.
You'd make me fall for you, with your charming words and looks, and then treat me so pathetically that I almost drowned in my emotions. You'd give me hope that would make the world seem like a better place, before smashing it into smithereens. You'd make my heart beat for you, before brutally stabbing at it with your words and actions. Why? All I wanted was to give you my heart. Why did you make it so difficult?
Later though, you made it up, I suppose. I still treasure the necklace you gave me, even though I can't bear to look at it without breaking down. And this may be presumptuous and naive of me but you love me too, don't you? Hidden, in your words and actions, was the love which I could never perceive. I still can't understand this. You love me, I love you yet why do we cause so much pain to each other?
We were never meant to be, Jimin. However much fate believes that the two of us belong to each other, I don't. Our love for each other is the darkest kind of ruination we could hope upon ourselves. It's just...destructive in mind and soul.
In the period that I've known you, all we did was hurt each other and hurt for each other. Maybe in another ideal life, we'll meet again and perhaps our love may blossom but in this current life, I don't see it happening anytime soon.
I want to end your part of the letter on a happy note though. Jimin, you are and always will be my Sun around which my thoughts, heart and soul will always revolve. I truly wish we could love each other.
To Both
And now to the both of you, I've attached a picture to this letter. I want you guys to look at it carefully and observe it.
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Done? You know why I drew this? Because it shows the beautiful yet inexplainable bond that lies between the two of you. How the two of you depend on each other, trust the other to be there when you need him, how you may not acknowledge this love out loud but you both know it, in your hearts.
No ARMY would ever place him or herself above this sacred bond. Know why? Because we all love you for who you are and how you are to each other. Over my dead body am I going to be the reason for the breakage of this beautiful brotherhood.
I saw the two of you cooking together. It made my heart more happy than the thought of being with either of you. Family comes first and that's what I want the two of you to realise. There will never be anyone who owns my heart more than the two of you but I want you to love each other more than you love me. I want the two of you to choose each other over me. If you had to choose between me or one of your members, I will always want you to choose your brother, no matter what.
I'll see the two of you when things go back to normal between the two of you. If you want to see me, of course which I highly doubt.
Love yourself Y/n
A/N: My fam!!! How are my beautiful readers???? I'm sorry for keeping you waiting but I had an exam last weekend so I couldn't update and I was trying to get a fanart of the precise picture I wanted. Also, I know I wrote a description before for the pic but because I couldn't find anything like how I had imagined, I changed it. Sorry!!! I tried to edit it to make it seem like a sketching but I couldn't find any proper filter. If any of you know an app that has a filter like that please tell me!! Tell, me how you like the story till now! Vote and comment if you liked it, sugars. ^_^
