{COMPLETED} A Matter of Choice

Chapter Fourteen

Sometimes in our hope to bear all the pain and do what we think is the right choice, we are ending up hurting everyone else in the process.
- akosilita31

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Changsub POV

I saw them smiling and laughing together.

She seems happy. They both are.

I guess that's what I get for being a coward.

When I saw Minhyuk hyung last night, kneeling in front of Chorong, asking her to be his girlfriend, I wanted to drag Chorong away from him. I love her too, I want her to be mine.

I couldn't. It's Minhyuk hyung. He's been one of the best friend I ever had. I know he would take a bullet for me if needed, and so do I. We've been through a lot together, he was like a real brother to me, we even call him Eomma at times because of how well he take care of us.

How do I hurt my own brother?

I turned around and left, I couldn't bear to hear what Chorong's answer would be, if she accepted him, I know Minhyuk hyung would be good to her. They both deserve to be happy.

I guess this is my own punishment for being a jerk and a coward. I can never have the one person I want in this world.

What if Chorong loves you too?

I shook my head at that thought. Even if I tell her how I feel, I couldn't do that to Minhyuk hyung. Had it been another guy, I might.

Chorong saw me as she was about to enter her classroom. I waved at her and smile at her, she waved back and went inside.

I left and head to my own class.

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I sat down at the bench, I put down my bag, put my elbows on the table and cup my own face.

I looked at the students coming in and out of their classroom, some playing soccer, couples walking hand in hand.

"What are you doing Changsub?"

I lifted my gaze from the students to the girl beside me. "Looking at what others are doing in their life, maybe I find what I want in my life too." I replied.

"Let me rephrase my question, what are you doing here with me? We broke up Changsub, we're supposed to be staying away from each other." Yura said rolling her eyes at me.

"I have nowhere to go." I replied bitterly.

"Are you kidding me? You have more real friends than me, and you have nowhere to go? Besides I thought you would confess to Chorong?"

I frowned at her and just lay my head on the table.

"Don't tell me she rejected you?" She asked incredulously. "Oh my! She did?" she asked laughing.

"No, I didn't even get to tell her about my feelings." I replied flicking her forehead.

"Ouch! Moron! Why are you here then? Just go to her."