{COMPLETED} A Matter of Choice

Chapter Two

Changsub POV

I took a deep breath, I tried to control my emotions. It's hard to do that whenever Chorong is beside me. I focused my eyes on the sea in front of me, trying to ignore the loud beating of my heart. Trying not to look at her, because I am not sure if I can control myself not to kiss her.

I almost let out a loud gasp when I feel her hugged me. Sometimes I wish I can just tell her everything, but I don't want to ruin us. I don't want to lose her, I'd rather bear the pain of not telling her how I feel than lose her in my life entirely.

"Changsubie... let's go back now." she said removing her arms from me. I nodded and stood up, offering my hand to her to assist her, she smiled and took my hands.

We arrived back to the bonfire to find our friends already singing and drinking soju. Hyunsik already playing his guitar and they were all jamming along.
We sat down and joined them.

Minhyuk hyung handed me a shot of soju which I drink immediately. Well, after earlier I think I need a drink. I saw Chorong accepted a shot from Bomi.

"Hey, that's mine Changsubie!" she complained when I took the shot from her hand.

"You cannot drink Chorongie." I said as I finished the drink and pinched her nose. She made a face at me. She can't hold down her liquor, so I don't let her drink.

"They're at it again, I'm squealing!" said Namjoo looking at Hayoung. "I know right? Changsubie!" Hayoung said to Namjoo. "Chorongie..!" Namjoo replied. And they squealed like crazy.

"You're so gross!! Ewww!" Chorong said to them, throwing a piece of chips at them in mortification.

"Girls, Chorong Noona doesn't see Changsub hyung as a man." said Sungjae and they all laugh together including Chorong. I screamed at Sungjae.

This is the reason why I can't tell her how I feel, she always act so repulsive of the idea of us being together. She's sweet and caring to me, but she would be mortified whenever someone talk about us being in a romantic way.

We continue the jamming and drinking, Chorong would constantly asked me if I am drunk already, telling me to stop if I am. I pinched her cheeks, she would pinch mine and will do that until one of us let go.

I wanted to get drunk tonight, maybe it would give me the courage to tell her how I feel. I downed another shot of soju when Minhyuk hyung asked me a question.

"If one of us try to hit on Chorong, would you be okay with that?" Minhyuk hyung asked as he took a shot.

I swallowed hard, not sure what to say. It's one of my fears, that one of my friends would fall for her. I am not ready for that. I am not sure I would be ever ready for it.

"Well, if you like to have an amazona girlfriend, good luck." I said then made a derpy face at Chorong and laugh. Chorong smacked my head as everyone laugh.

I look at Minhyuk hyung, he's staring intently at Chorong. He caught me looking at him staring at her. He raised his glass at me and nodded. What the hell does it mean? Did he mean what he said earlier? Is it not a random question?

We continue drinking until we finished all the soju we brought with us. When we are done, we all gathered the trash and clean up. I noticed Chorong being silent for a while now. I wonder what's on her mind, sometimes I wish I could read what she's thinking when she spaced out.