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Astraea
Thursday

I didn’t wake up. Well I did, many times during the night. The first was at midnight. The second was at 2:43 and the last one was at 4:52 a.m. That was when I decided to stay up.

The sheets were a tangled mess, as always. But with 4 living organisms taking up room on the small bed, left me with only a small space on the bed and falling off several times. I didn't mind one bit. As long as they have a place that's safe and where they can sleep, then I’m happy. The kittens were sleeping on old towels placed underneath them so they won't get the bed dirty. Also, I didn't want to do the laundry again.

I laid there taking pictures of the kittens sleeping. I couldn't help it. They looked peaceful sleeping, curled up next to one another. Bodies rising up and down at a slow pace. The pictures didn't turn out great, as there wasn't great lighting and the kittens are still dirty. It’s currently 5: 27 a.m. I couldn't sleep and the sun is rising. Painting the sky amazing colors of baby blue, light purple and pale pink. Clouds looking fluffy, reminding me of carnivals, laughter, and candy.

I continued looking out the window. Sighing, I stood up and stretched. I looked on the floor for my sweatpants that I didn't want to wear. It's uncomfortable some nights. I found it laying on the other side of the room by the wall. Slipping those on, I moved the plants out of the way so that I won't have a hard time opening the window. I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and chanted "Sky above me, earth below me, the fire within me. Preserve and protect me." I chanted this as many times I needed. My mom used to say this every morning before going to work and before I knew it I started saying it too.

I walked towards the bed and laid down next to Callisto and the kittens. Kissing them and just laying there at the moment; feeling love bloom from my chest and throughout my body. I took a mental note to wash the kittens later on in the day.

I then walked into the kitchen to grab a cup of water. It's Thursday so that means it's watering plants day. I went back into the room and watered every plant in there. Once I finished that I went ahead and started to fill Callisto's and the kitten's bowls. The kitten was thin so I only filled 3/4 of the bowls so it won't overload them. I then filled the other bowls with milk.

I walked over to the windows in the apartment and opened them too. Welcoming the morning and a new day. My apartment was on the 3rd floor, the top floor, so I didn't worry about anyone sneaking in. I opened the last window which was by the empty bedroom that needs to be filled. My old roommate moved out a week ago. She didn't forget to pay her part of the rent and other necessities before leaving. Lucky it was the beginning of the month she helped pay, so I didn't have to worry. She was a sweet girl, it sucked that she left because it felt lonely without her.

I also miss her because Aurora is great at cooking. Aurora would make me lunch for school and work. She only did that because she noticed that I lived off vending machines and instant ramen. I remembered she scolded me because of that.

It seems I'll have to go back to my ways for a little until I find a roommate that would like to make food for me. At the plant shop, they allow people to hang up missing poster signs or upcoming shows on the windows. So I'll do that too. I can also hang up a poster at the college too when I'm on my way too class at 8 today. I'll have to ask at the coffee shop tomorrow when I go to work.

I then walk back into the bedroom to check the time on my phone. It was only 5:46, meaning that I have about 2 hours left to get ready for class today. Callisto and the kittens are still asleep. Sighing, I check my laptop to see if it's fully charged. It's at 42 percent, so I plug in my charger. I make sure I have everything in my backpack before I go and take a shower so I won't forget. I went to the bathroom in-between both rooms and did my daily routine. Shower, brush my teeth, wash my face and put on light make-up. I filled in my eyebrows and curled my eyelashes.

My outfit was simple. It was a striped black and white sweater with blue skinny jeans and a dark blue Adidas dad hat. Black Chuck Taylor all stars with striped socks. It was 6:16 by the time I'm done. Giving me enough time to eat, fix my bed, and close all my windows.

I did all the things I needed to do. As I closed the window in my bedroom I noticed how Callisto and the kittens are snuggled up together. It made my heart warm. I knew then, that I wanted to stay home and sleep my worries away.

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I feel better or comfortable that not that many people are reading my story. Don't feel pressured to update as much. Also, I'm going to change some things about the story because it's a mess.