Why Do You Care? || XXXTENTACION

SAVE YOURSELF • C8

11:42 AM

Damn I sleep late.

I got out of the bed, took a shower, did my hygiene, and put on some clothes.

I just put on some simple black joggers with pockets everywhere, and a white savage tee.

I decided to stay here for like 5 days and go back to FL on Saturday.

I'm gonna go see my mom today, so I got an Uber and told him my location.

"What's your location ma'am?" The driver asked.

"Um Lake View Cemetery in Cuyahoga County please." I said sitting up.

The drive is like 15 minutes away from here so I'll be good.

I just laid my head on the window and listened to music on my phone.

All of a sudden Save Yourself by Jahseh and Ski came on. I had no choice but to skip it. I don't miss him.

We're 10 minutes into the drive, when I got a random phone call. I declined it.

I don't really feel like talking to people right now.

We got to my location, the Uber dude drove off, and I was looking for Alyxendria Maurice Parker.

I finally found her tombstone.

I couldn't talk. I just cried.

"I'm sorry mom." I said bawling my eyes out.

Thankfully I brought my blade with me.

I went to sit on the bench by her gravesite.

I said 'im sorry' a million times within each cut.

"I gave up on you. Please forgive me." I said crying and cutting.

Fresh cuts. So depressing.

I couldn't stay anymore. So I left. I didn't call the Uber.

I just walked, and walked, and walked. Until I got lost in the woods.

Fuck my life.

I sat down by a big tree.

I got a million fresh cuts.

Some deep, some light.

I felt nauseous.

I walked back out into the city and called the Uber.

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4 Days Later...

Ive been cutting nonstop now.

I don't know what's gotten into me.

I decided to go home early, so I started putting my clothes back in my suitcase.

Right now I'm just wearing some basketball shorts and a sports bra.

I bought a plane ticket yesterday so I'm good on that.

My plane leaves the same time. 3 in the AM.

Skipping Plane Ride...
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I'm finally fucking home.
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Jahseh POV

I've been thinking about Alyx the whole time she's been gone.

Where the fuck is she???

I just really hope she's not dead.

I fucked up the day she had that fight with Geneva.

(No fucking shit)

Alyx isn't answering my calls, and she hasn't even opened my messages.