Tainted

Chapter 5 - Revelations

A/N here's the next chapter! Enjoy! And don't forget I love getting votes and comments :) Dedicated to ScottishChampion11 because otherwise the waits between each chapter would be a hell of a lot longer.  Also pic of her ring on the side --->

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I felt horrible about avoiding Severus but it had to be done. I wouldn’t be surprised if I never hear from him again. Every time he tried to talk to me I brushed him off as if he never meant anything to me. Albus had called a staff meeting that I had to be at in a couple of hours about Sirius Black. I met him a couple of times when I was younger. Sirius was quite good looking if I remember correctly. He had black hair that would sometimes get into his grey eyes and was quite tall. Sirius was James’ best friend and I’d never imagined he was capable of betraying him and Lily like that. I don’t understand it. He is after all Harry’s godfather.

Those were good times. I wonder what would have happened if Sirius hadn’t been arrested.  I always thought he and Remus would have married or at least stayed together. Remus had a pale face and light brown hair but he was also one of the most intelligent and caring men I have ever met, which contrasted well against Sirius’ arrogant nature. They were really in love. It was the same kind of love James and Lily had – the kind I had always wanted. Their time together was - as Remus would say ‘wonderful’, but all good things come to an end and that’s exactly what happened. Sirius was arrested and with no proof he didn’t do it, they had to part ways.

I lay down on my bed and thought about last night. Luna was coming over soon so I didn’t have a lot of time to focus on me. Last night I had the first nightmare since I had befriended Severus.

It was late at night. Thunder roared outside my window as the lightning flashed through my room. I was curled up, clutching my knees to my body in the corner at the foot of my bed. I felt numb even though I was wearing a woollen sweater. It was so cold. Thoughts were barely registering in my mind. What’s happening? Books lay scattered on the floor, presumably fallen from the bookshelf earlier in the storm. The wind howled and knocked against the window.

It was dark, I couldn’t see anything. The only light came from the occasional flashes of lightning. My hair was sticking out in all directions. Suddenly the room disappeared beneath my feet. I was standing in mid-air with tears falling down my face. My clothes were ripped and worn. I felt exhausted. Blood stained my arms but I barely noticed it. There was nothing around me. It was just pitch black everywhere I looked. Nothing seemed to exist. I was alone.

Slowly, tiny razor blades began to appear in the darkness. My heart clenched, I felt fear pulse through my body. I didn’t know whether to be relieved I could feel anything or cynical because this could only ever happen to me. The blades took their time turning before coming to an abrupt stop with one end pointing straight at me. There was no noise. I felt as though sound itself had been sucked out of the empty void I was trapped in.

I felt myself involuntarily shake as the cold reached my bones. The sound of pins dropping filled my ears just as abruptly as sound had vanished. A throbbing pain began to grow in my head. I could feel a scream start to rise up my throat. The pain stopped along with the pins and the void was silent once more.

Why me?

Relief washed over me. Maybe that was it, maybe now it’ll be over and I can act like this never happened. I spoke too soon. A low buzzing sound grew louder with each passing second filling the empty void for a second time. The blades shook violently as the buzzing rumbled into the distance.

“No! No! Please!” I begged but it was useless. There was no one to hear my screams as the blades shot past me, slashing my body again and again.