"I'm worthless! Fuck! I'm worthless! I'm fucking worthless! I shouldn't live anymore!"
I kept banging my fist into the wall I didn't want to live.... I lost everything.... All my memories.... I had no one close to me... I could remember a faint name.....
It appears in my head and swiftly disappears....
'kotori.... Kotori.... Kotori...'
My mind keeps repeating the name....
I cannot understand or perceive who the person is....
Faint memories seep in....
Blurry and faint.... I can't make it out....
Everything was dying or was it?
I bash my fist again, this time, it starts to bleed....
I lay in the bed crying and crawling.....
'Why do I have to be so lonely? Why can't anyone be friends with me? Am I that fat? Am I that ugly? Is that why everyone hates me?'
I take out a sharp razor and cut deep inside my leg....
I could almost see the fat seep out.....
'Focus on the physical pain... Focus on the physical pain...'
I keep saying it to myself.....
But of no use....
Suddenly, my phone vibrates in bed....
My nervousness and bleeding heart open it....
Sender:Unknown
Number: & & & & &
Text: Your a burden to this earth....
I was shocked by the unknown text....
Whoever it was..... It wanted my pain and I wasn't willing to show it...
Reply:- Is that so? Then why bother text me?
I clench my phone, tightly in my hand waiting for a reply, sure enough it didn't wait
Unknown:I like texting worthless fat hoes you know? Why do you keep eating like a dog? Your not a dog... Stop feeding yourself dumb slut
Reply:- Oh... I'm dumb? Look at your ugly face! You cunt
Unknown:- Your so worthless, no one even cares about your existence, why bother living when you're gonna die? Huh? You don't know me sweetheart! Don't mess with me!
Reply:- Oh I can't seem to give a fuck! Go find someone who gives one
Unknown:- You don't remember anything do you? Forgetful slut
I shudder.... I keep my muffler close to me... Who is this person?....
Unknown:- One more rude word and your life is at stake....
I didn't know what to say... It felt like getting stung by a million bees... My heart throbbed.... If I say anything to piss this person.... He or she would murder me.... No small mistake can be afforded...
Reply:- I'm..... S... O.. rry.... Why can I seem to talk and interact with you, but I can't interact with anyone? Do you know anything about me?...
Unknown:- I don't research about wretched and deranged sluts! Now! Why the fuck did you ask that to me?! Do you want to get yourself killed?!
It sounded mad.... I shouldn't repeat it once more....if I do, it can kill me....
Reply:- I'm sorry....
Unknown:- That's a good girl...
Reply:- Why did you send those gruesome images to me?....
Unknown :- The deranged, wretched whore asks something useful! That's weird....
Reply:- Please.....
Unknown:- Have You ever chopped the hand that fed you?
*view attachment*
He went offline with that.... Chopped the hand that fed me?...what did he mean?....
I slowly click on the attachment with shivering fingers....
My body was colder than the wind....
It showed a small hotel room....
The setting sun was seen through the window.....
There were pills on a round table and blades etched in blood...
Then. I noticed the main part...
Two legs dangling from the ceiling with stuffed cloth inside her mouth....
I scanned the picture and zoomed it....
The girl In the picture was me....
YOU ARE READING
White Pineapple
Mistério / Suspense"You are not created in the image of God God is created in the image of you" (Trigger Warning for: Rape, Mental illness, Self Destructive behavior and hallucinations)
