Lost (Negovanman)

Forever

It is now the second time that Natasha has stayed the night, only this time everything is different. This time she gets to wake up the girl who's lying in her arms by pampering her with light kisses.

But right now she's just admiring her as the morning sun comes shining through the window because they were way too occupied with other more important, heat of the moment things than closing the curtains for a good nights sleep.

The sun shines beautifully on the half naked part of Elise's toned back and one leg that's barely covered by the sheet. Flashbacks of the night before make their way back into her mind as her hand glides over Elise's bare back all the way up to her shoulder. Enjoying the reaction it has on her skin as goosebumps form, the touch making Elise move a little and snuggle up closer to her.

Natasha smiles as she softly places a kiss on top of her head, brushing away a strand of her hair as she ghosts her cheek with her thumb. "Are you trying to wake me up?" A sleepy voice responds with a little chuckle.
Elise lifts up her head with her eyes still closed, rocking a soft but beautiful smile, nuzzling her way up to give her a kiss on her neck.

A moment of thinking back to the morning before, where she had to resist the urge of kissing her, when now there is absolutely nothing holding her back in doing so. Finally free to give into that urge she inches closer and softly kisses her on her lips. "Hmm maybe." she says unable to suppress a big smile.

Elise starts to grumble a bit and in an almost childlike way she starts to pout as she curls closer onto her again. "Nooo," she whines, "it's too early!"

"That may be, but I couldn't resist you anymore."

"That's what got us into this in the first place." she says with a smirk, her eyes still peacefully closed.

Natasha shifts a little bit trying to read Elise's face as a wave of uncertainty hits her. "What do you mean? Are- Are you having second thoughts?"

Elise finally opens her eyes and chuckles a little. "No, of course not! Nat, you came back last night. Now, I'm not saying you came back because you couldn't get enough of me, I mean we discussed the heck out of it last night, but here we are and you can't keep your hands to yourself. For the record, totally not against to not keeping your hands to yourself. In fact I want them all over me."

Natasha starts to smile playfully now, feeling relieved as that stupid wave of uncertainty disappears, getting replaced with confidence instead. "What are you talking about? I actually just came back for my clothes."

Elise looks back a little with her eyes tight. But she instantly spots the emotions and the playfulness in Natasha's eyes. "Oh shut up!"

"Make me." she says with that seductive smile while biting her bottom lip for a moment.

Elise holds herself up by her elbow and lays her free hand on Natasha's hip, slowly trickling her way up her naked body while placing feather light kisses from her shoulder to her jaw and finally landing on her lips. She then grabs her hand and intertwines their fingers as she gets up to straddle her while sucking on her bottom lip, letting her tongue graze it before she deepens the kiss, making Natasha hum her approval in the process. Finally she leans their foreheads together and placed her hands on her cheeks to cup them. "I'm thinking that this is going to be my favourite way of shutting you up." she says as puts a little distance between their faces.

"I'm thinking.." she takes a couple of seconds to look into those beautiful honey brown eyes, "I'm thinking I couldn't be more happy than I am right now." Taking hold of Elise's hands and intertwining their fingers once again.
'She has grown so much over these past few years, we have grown so much. I cannot imagine my life without her anymore.'
"You make me feel so incredibly safe and loved. And I will do everything in my power to make you feel the same way, Elise."

Elise smiles the brightest of smiles and bends down to kiss her again. "You already do, Nat. You make me happy, make me feel safe and you absolutely make me feel loved. I've never felt so loved before in my life. You're.. you're it, Negovanlis."

Natasha takes a deep breath as she pushes down the tears and let's go of their hands to cup Elise's cheeks and pulls her down for a kiss, letting her hands slide into Elise's hair and slowly moves one arm around her neck.

She let's go of all her emotions as Elise pulls her closer to her by placing her hands in the nape of her neck, deepening the kiss once more. As one hand slides back up to cup Natasha's face she feels a tear running against her hand and pulls away from the kiss. "Hey... what's going on?" Elise asks with a soothing and soft voice, nothing but compassion and love in her eyes, as her thumbs brush away a couple more tears. "Nat.. talk to me." she almost whispers.

"It's nothing." she says letting out a little chuckle. "I'm.. just a being big dork. A big happy dork. These are happy tears El, I promise. There's no place I'd rather be, I feel like myself when I'm with you."
'Oh god I love her. I'd want nothing more than to say those words to her right now. But I don't want to scare her away.'

Elise leans their foreheads together again and closed her eyes. "I love you."

Natasha stopped breathing there for a moment after hearing the words, she was scared to say herself, come out the mouth of the woman she's so in love with. "Fuck." she breaths out making Elise look up in fear with her eyes wide. "I love you too.. so fucking much." she says meeting her eyes, the fear In Elise her eyes disappearing in an instant.

Natasha sits up with Elise still straddling her and looks up into her eyes as she puts her arms around her waist. Elise wipes away another stray tear as she gently cups her cheeks before placing a lingering and ever so meaningful kiss on Natasha's awaiting lips. Pulling her into a much needed hug after, protectively wrapping her arms around her over her shoulders while letting Natasha rest her head against her chest.

They stayed like this for some time. Fingers soothingly stroking up and down their bare skin, in perfect harmony. Until Elise breaks the silence with a question. "So you wanna give this a try?" she says with smirk, trying to hide her own insecurity.

Natasha snorts a little and pulls away from the comfort of Elise's chest, already missing the sound of her heartbeat. Elise looks at her with that amazing smile and those beautiful honey brown peepers connecting with her deep brown eyes. "Like you even had to ask." she answers before kissing those lips she already started missing since their last kiss.

"I was always yours and forever will be."

FIN