ok i d e k what to feel
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A week later after the school orientation, Things got worse for me. I fail my subjects, get detention, and the only thing left is having to get kicked out of school. At lunch, I sat at the canteen with Luke and Michael. Turns out Luke acts a little bit gay for Michael, but it could be brotherly love, am I right?
Ashton locked himself away from everyone. Even the guidance counselour asked hin about those but he lie. I wish I could just have a courage to talk to him.
"Hey," Luke says as he waved his hands ten centimeters (ya just estimate) away from my eyes. I was staring at the frame above us. It was in a shape of circle with doodles that I don't understand. "Are you okay?"
I brought my stare away from the frame to the two of them. "Y-yeah" And I continued eating my sandwhich. As I eat, I saw Ashton buying lunch and it's just salad. We all stared at him.
"Guess what?" Michael says in a low tone. He was still staring at him as if he is disgusted. "Maybe he's stoned. Why don't you come and see him?"
Luke looked at Michael and then at me and smirked. "Yeah, why don't you? just run over him, spilling his drink and say sorry. It's ju-"
"It's not easy, okay?!" I interrupted. It looks like they're picking on Ashton, even if they don't really know him. I quickly stood up and left them. "Be right back."
As I walk towards his direction, I felt nervious. I didn't talked to him for a very long time. Then an adrenaline rush that makes me nudge his shoulders. And I did. Ashton looked at me and barely smiled.
"Hi," I said, trying to be calm. "It's been a long time."
He chuckled and said, "Yeah. I know it."
"Can we talk? like you know, hang out at this time?" I asked shyly as I placed my hands in the pockets of my sweater. His smile faded. "Did I said something wrong?"
"No!" He laughed. "I-it's okay if you want to. Uh, Hi." And we left the canteen and to the school backyard.
All we seem to talk about was the last things we did. When we last dated, shared mixetapes and CD's, did crazy, stupid things together. I'm glad he still remembered those. "Why?" I asked him.
"Because every day, every night, all I ever wanted was to be with you." He smiled. "I know that's cheesy."
"Can we go to my classroom?" I asked him in a low voice.
"Sure, why not?" Ashton replied as he threw the plastic container of the food. We ran towards my classroom at the fifth floor. Then I locked the teacher's door. We sat down at the floor and waited until we calmed down after running. "So, what now?" Ashton asked. He sat down at one of the chairs and just looked at me who pressed my back against the wall.
"KInd of weird," I said, trying to break the awkward silence. "We haven't talked for a while then I have no shame to talk to you"
"I don't get you," Ashton laughed, biting his bottom lip. He fixed his hair and walked towards me. Then we started kissing. Not the usual kiss, or make out. I suddenly felt complete. I just missed him. Ashton smiled as he released his lips from mine. "Dammit I miss those kisses with your pale lips"
I raised an eyebrow. "Are they pale?"
"Of course, At least you don't wear so much lipstick" Ashton smirked. Then we continued again. I didn't mind where we are, what time is it, or what should we be doing. Not even Luke or Michael. At the middle of our kisses, the door clicked open.
Michael.
I let go of Ashton and told him to stay for awhile.
He seemed not surprised. "Want to go out tonight? like all of us?" He asked. "Hey, Ash. It's been a long time."
"Hey, mate" Ashton says, giving him a high five.
"Go outside this room, it's hella dark" Michael whined.
"Dammit, Mikey." I rolled my eyes and opened a pack of gum. Luckily, they didn't noticed me. "You ruined the moment." It caused the two of them laugh as Michael left to see Luke.
7:03 pm
Before I left the house again, I ate dinner with my grandmother. It's like I haven't been with her for months. She still tell stories about my parents, which is fun. Or how she met grandpa. It's kind of cute. I finished eating the soup she made and washed the dishes. I let her rest at the couch and watch some Doctor Who. It was her childhood, she said. And so did my mom's. And mine. I did the household chores while texting Michael.
Michael: hey el
Me: hi mikey
Mikey: tonight?
Me: ok but after mum, (grandma) sleep.
I turned off my phone and continued cleaning.
8 pm
I took a hot shower and went to bed, wearing the outfit I should wear later. It was a black nirvana shirt, flannel, and boots.
Mikey: u awake
I was about to reply but I fell asleep, because I was exhausted and lacking of interest to go.
12:23 am
I heard stones being thrown at my window. It was them, I guess. I woke up, brushed my hair, fixed my clothes that almost looked crumpled, and went outside. It was really cold I decided to wear my flannel, but then Michael and Ashton gave me their sweaters in unison. I could feel the jealousy at their eyes as they looked at each other. Luke stole Michael's sweater and decided to wear it, so I took Ashton's. Then we went to Michael's house that I've been to for a couple of times.
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MUKE MUKE MUKE HAJDKSDDSKJ
to clear things up: luke is not gay here, he just acts like one to mikey boo ~
and yea hey pretty long story.
