Dubious In Love

Chapter 1

Chapter One:

ASWOON AND INDISPOSED. The atmosphere was clouded with music and wild dancing lights. My heart is pounding so hard due to the super loud music plus the smell of liquor and cigarettes smoke. All was combine in the air inside this bar- room. This room is a bar like.

Kung hindi lang ako nahihiya ay tatanggihan ko ang alok na imbitasyon ni Iowa. It is like a 'goodbye party' daw sa pagiging single niya. More like bridal shower with a twist. Kasama niya kasi ang groom niya sa paparty na ito.

"Cheers ladies! This is our night!!" Larina shout competing the loud music.

"Cheers!"

"Cheers!"

"Cheers!"

Nagsimula silang magsitayuan papuntang dance floor.

We are on the huge sofa. Four huge sofa forming a big square. Kung may maganda man sa lugar na ito, iyon ay maaliwalas. Kahit na marami siyang bisita ay hindi parin masikip it's already nine in the evening at kaninang alas sais pa kami narito. Mula kanina ay hindi kami nakalabas sa maingay na kwartong ito not that I don't want, Iowa don't want us to.

I'm having a back ache and stiff neck because of sitting too long. Madalas ko lang rin naman kung inumin ang alak na nasa lamesa, dahil ayaw kong malasing. Kahit na sabihing sabado naman bukas.

Labing lima kaming nakaupo sa mga malalaking sofa na ito pero tanging anim na lang ang natira. The rest we're dancing like an animal shouting like there's no tomorrow. I felt so dizzy and drowsy, medyo masama ang pakiramdam ko kaninang umaga pa pero hindi ko naman magawang tanggihan ang kaibigan.

I massage my temple. Lalong sumasama ang pakiramdam ko kasabay sa tugtog ng masakit sa dibdib at tenga na musika.

"What are you doing? You okay?" someone tug my arm. It's Iowa.

"Kinda dizzy. Pagod lang," pinilit kong ngumiti.

"Gusto mo na bang umuwi? You look terrible. Sorry, pinilit kitang pumunta dito. Kasi naman eh, you are one of my babes, and it's my bridal shower! You shouldn't miss it." lumabi siya bago ako niyakap nang patagilid. Natawa ako sa ginawa at sinabi niya.

"It's okay. Of course I shouldn't miss it. Kaya nga ako nandito eh, I'm fine, babe. Go. Don't mind me." tinapik ko siya sa balikat. Convincing her, while lying more to myself.

I'm not fine. I want to lay in my bed. Hugging my pillows would make me feel better, Io.

"Okay, thank you. If you need anything, just call me. Or Larina or Farrah." she added.

"Come on, babe! Si Larina? Malamang dadalawa na paningin non and Farrah is too engross with the music. She wouldn't left the dance floor." patukoy ko sa dalawa pa naming kaibigan.

"Then call me." She giggled making me laugh in the process.

"Fine. Where is the comfort room, by the way? I might need it." kumuha siya ng inumin at sumimsim doon bago ako sinagot.

"Sa baba, malapit sa kusina."

"Noted." hinayaan ko na siya ng makita siyang tumayo.

I felt sick all of a sudden, I begun coughing. Napahawak ako sa aking dibdib. Hinayaan ko muna sa pag aakalang dala lamang ng alak. But I started coughing again.

I need water.

Wala sa huwisyong tumayo ako. In the midst of tipsy people I find my way out. Ilang beses akong halos matumba sa kakatulak nila and It made me lost my temper.