Philophobia (Stray Kids WooChan)

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An hour after still getting no response, Chan was about to lose his mind and called Minho. Minho said he hadn't heard anything from Woojin but agreed that the email sounded bad so he told Chan he would go to Woojin's house to check on him. Another hour later, Chan received a call from Minho. Chan only needed to hear four words out of Minho's mouth before he was running out of his apartment.

"Woojin's in the hospital"

When Chan arrived, he found Minho in the waiting room. He immediately asked for what happened. Minho next three words made Chan's knees weak.

"Woojin attempted suicide."

Chan didn't know how to handle the situation. What had he said to trigger this? Minho began explaining that this wasn't the first time Woojin had tried this, just that everyone thought he was better. The two boys sat in the waiting room for another hour until a doctor approached them. The first two out of the doctor's mouth made Chan the happiest person in the room.

"He's awake."

The doctor led the two boys down a few hallways before stopping outside a room. The doctor explained that Woojin was probably a little out of it from blood loss but that he was coherent. When the doctor opened the door and allowed the two boys to walk in, only one word could come out of Chan's mouth.

"Woojin..."

Woojin was not capable of words at that moment. All the elder could do was cry at the sight of Chan looking at him with such pity. What Woojin didn't realize was that Chan held so much pity for Woojin because he too had been in the exact same position as Woojin. No other words were said in the room for close to an hour. By that point, Woojin was asleep and Minho was staring at Chan.

"I'm starting to think I'm cursed," Minho said and Chan raised an eyebrow in confusion. "I've found two of closest friends bleeding out from their wrists now. I'm starting to think it'll only be a matter of time before I find Jisung with his wrists cut open."

"I tried to kill myself because you were cheating on me," Chan said bitterly. "I gave my heart to you Minho and you crushed it without me even realizing and you didn't even care."

"I did care Chan hyung," Minho said and went to speak again but Chan didn't allow it.

"You didn't fucking care," Chan said through clenched teeth, trying not to scream and wake Woojin. "If you fucking cared you wouldn't have kept fucking him, you wouldn't have left me for him. It doesn't matter anyway anymore." Chan sat back in his seat and could see Minho wished to keep talking, probably to make excuses. "Oh, save it. I don't want excuses from you." It was quiet again for a while. Chan thought of something that made him feel bad and decided to do something about it. "Don't blame yourself for me trying to kill myself back then. It wasn't the first time and it probably won't be the last time. It's just something that happens in my life. I let my emotions get the best of me and allow my mind to go to the darkest of places. It wasn't your fault."

"I knew you acted this way though," Minho said, shaking his head. "I should have ended our relationship before I ever cheated on you. I'm sure that would have made things better."

Chan shrugged his shoulders before standing from his chair. "Who knows. I have to go to work. Give this to Woojin when he wakes back up." Chan handed Minho a folded up piece of notepaper, that he had written on after Woojin had fallen asleep, before handing towards the door. With his hand on the door handle, he looked back towards Minho. "I hope Jisung makes you happy."

Minho nodded and with that Chan left. However, he did not head straight to work. Instead, he sat on a curb in the hospital parking lot of a bit. Mostly, he was running his fingers up and down the multiple deep scars on his forearms. Another thing that he did, that he probably wouldn't admit to anyone but Woojin if they asked, was cry over Minho, one last time. From that moment on, Chan decided he would forget about Minho and completely move on from his ex-lover.

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Haha depressing shit

I should honestly try writing a happy story for once. I wonder how it would trun out.

Hope you all enjoy this story!