Philophobia (Stray Kids WooChan)

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It had been only a day since Chan received Woojin's letter from Minho. Chan was currently on his way to the hospital to visit Woojin. He would have visited the elder the day he got the letter but Minho had not given it to him until later in the evening and Chan would have only had a few minutes with Woojin until visiting hours ended. Due to this fact, Chan had to wait until the next day to be able to visit Woojin again. When Chan made it to the hospital, he found Woojin's room and the sight inside broke his heart. Woojin was sitting in a chair beside the window just staring out it, looking rather sad and bit bored. It was clear to Chan that no one had visited Woojin since the day he came to the hospital, which was a few days ago now.

"Hey Woojinnie." Chan called out softly, not wanting to scare the older. "I came to see you."

Woojin looked over to Chan and Chan's heart melted at the smile that came onto Woojin's face. "Hey Channie."

Chan didn't say anything else but took his sweater off and pulled the other chair in the room over to sit facing Woojin. Woojin didn't speak either but grabbed Chan's wrists and looked at the scars there before lightly running his fingertips over them. Chan watched Woojin for a while before speaking. "I've also had my stomach pumped twice."

Chan heard Woojin sighed before the elder removed his hands. "Can I ask why?"

Chan nodded but stayed quiet for a moment longer. "I had some issues in my childhood. That's what caused the first two attempts. I moved to Korea to come to high school here but it was so lonely. My mind started going back to how it was when I was younger. I went to a doctor but, as I'm sure you know, mental health isn't taken seriously in Korea, especially in youth so the doctor pretty much told me I was fine and sent me home. My third attempt was less than a week later. My parents brought me home and helped me through everything. I had a therapist that helped me to learn how to change my thoughts and stop my mind from going to these dark places. However, I couldn't do anything when I found Minho's journal where he talked about Jisung and how he had been cheating on me. I couldn't stop the thoughts in my head and they took over. That was what caused my four and hopefully final attempt. After that I found a therapist here in Korea who works well with me and I've been slowly getting better."

Woojin nodded and stay quiet as he thought over Chan's words. "They brought a therapist in here yesterday. I didn't like him very much but we talked and he feels I must have a fear of falling in love because of what happened to me."

"You mean what makes you believe it is to painful for you to fall in love again?" Chan asked and Woojin nodded. "Well, I suggest finding a therapist that you like and talking about this fear and what happened to you and working through it. I don't want to see you in a hospital again Woojin, once is enough for me."

Woojin nodded and smiled a bit because he felt Chan really cared for him. "Thank you Channie. Ever since I closed myself off to people, I haven't had many friends or people who cared about me. When I decided to write that first letter to you, I thought I was only going to do it to apologize for how Minho treated you but, as you know, that's not how the first letter turned out. I didn't expect it but I'm glad for the friendship that has come out of our letters."

Chan had a huge smile on his face after hearing those words from Woojin. "I'm glad too. I really do care about you Woojinnie. I want to protect you and take care of you. Will you let me do that?"

Woojin nodded and Chan smiled even more. After that the two boys spent the day together. Sometimes they would chat and get to know each other even more and sometimes they sat quietly, watching the world move outside the hospital room window. When Woojin fell asleep maybe, just maybe, Chan watched him with a fond smile. However, he'd never admit to anyone that he did such a thing. It was a memory he'd keep for himself.

Chan visited Woojin everyday after that and within a week, Woojin was home and everything was going back to normal.

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A longer chapter

I saw the BTS concert thing and it was so good. The first tine they showed Jimin in the opening video this girl screamed and it was a whole mood.

Anyone reading this a BTS fan? If so, who's your bias? I don't really have one so I'm curious.

Hope you all enjoy this story!