Philophobia (Stray Kids WooChan)

XLVII

The two spent the rest of the summer together in Chan's bed whenever they weren't watching Changbin, as he was just getting worse instead of better. However, school had to start again. Once that happened, the two knew they'd barely have time for each other. Despite the fact the two had only been dating for a few weeks, Chan asked Woojin to move into his apartment. It honestly didn't really change much as Woojin had basically lived in Chan's apartment most of the summer. Woojin wasn't sure at first but when Chan brought up the fact it'd be cheaper for both of them, Woojin was sold. Being a broke college student, Woojin was ready to save money in any way possible.

Everything wasn't sunshine and rainbows though. Between little disagreements and fights and Woojin's panic attacks when Chan got a little to physical, there were a fair amount of problems. Hyunjin stopping Changbin from walking straight into traffic was just the cherry of top of Chan's pile of stresses and Woojin getting overly jealous of Chan's care for Changbin wasn't helping.

It took about a month for Chan to reach his breaking point. Everyone was at his apartment for his birthday and nothing was putting Chan in a good mood. Minho and Jisung were being a little to touchy (he had no feelings for Minho anymore, it was just annoying to see), Changbin was being a little to cold, Hyunjin was babying him a little too much, the youngest three were being a little to loud, Woojin was being a little to salty about Chan not putting full attention on him, and Chan had had enough. Chan was trying to put dinner together when Woojin made a comment that just send Chan over the edge.

"Just shut up!" Chan screamed while throwing the plate in his hand on the floor, scaring everyone in the living room. "I can't do this anymore! I'm not perfect but you all expect me to be. I'm tried of trying my fucking hardest to be the best for everyone and it's not good enough for any of you." At this point Chan was sobbing and no one knew what to do.

"Chan hyung we don't expect you to be perfect." Jisung spoke and everyone nodded with him.

"Yes, you fucking do!" Chan screamed again. "If I spend to much time trying to care for Changbin, Woojin get upset at me. If I don't spend enough time caring of Changbin or get his groceries a little to late, Hyunjin gets mad at me. If I don't have my vocal lesson work done on time, Seungmin gets mad at me. If I don't make songs and lyrics fast enough, Jisung and Changbin both get mad at me. If I can't learn dance moves for that stupid class I was forced to take fast enough, Minho gets mad at me. If I don't have time to help him with his homework, Jeongin gets mad at me. When I can't get information on Felix, which is going to be practically impossible at this point, Changbin gets mad at me. To top it all off, my mother is trying to get me to move back to Australia because she thinks I'm going to try and kill myself again. Honestly, she's not wrong to worry. If you all don't stop soon then it probably won't be long until I try again. I'm just so fucking tired of trying to do everything for everyone and no one giving a single shit about how I feel or what I want. Has any one of you stopped to think that the reason I'm not doing something for you or not finishing something I'm suppose to do is because I fucking can't! That I don't have fucking time! No, because all any of you care about is yourselves! I'm tried of it!"

"Chan...," Woojin said, walking up to the said male, who just collapsed onto the floor, crying and not caring that he was sitting on pieces of broken plate. "Come here baby." Woojin pushed pieces of the plate aside, sitting cross legged on the floor and pulling Chan onto his lap. "You should have said something earlier baby. None of us knew what others were expecting from you so we didn't know we were asking so much of you."

After that day Chan learned to tell people when they were asking to much of him and Woojin tried his hardest not to be jealous of Chan and Changbin's friendship. Everything was better, still not perfect, but the two were happy and both becoming better people.

》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》
A prue relationship

I almost just broke my dryer. I shouldn't be allowed to be an adult.

Hope you all enjoy this story!