I'm lost without you // Solby

Falling

Colby's P.O.V
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Sam: "Colby! Wake up! Cmon, you slept in too late we have to film for Corey's channel."

Ugh. I forgot. I stayed up all night fighting voices that wouldn't go away.
"Okay, okay. I'm up!"

Sam: "Let's go, meet us downstairs in 10."

I feel like I can't move. My body feels heavy. Like I just got hit by a car, twice. Yesterday was hard. I had another mental breakdown, and nobody was home. I don't like to bother people though, so I just keep quiet. Sam doesn't know and I don't plan on telling him anytime soon.
It takes every ounce of energy to get up out of bed, and my vision goes blurry for a second.
Ugh. I forgot to eat yesterday. Just as well, I don't need to.
These shorts and a shirt will be fine. It's not like I have to keep up my appearance.

Sam: "Colby! It's been 15 min, get down here!"

15 min? Jeez, I didn't even notice. As I'm walking to my door my reflection catches me

God you look horrible
You're so fucking gross
Fatass

Sam: "Colby!!!"

"Coming!"

Sam: "Colby you ok? You spent a lot of time up there?"

"Yeah Sam. I'm fine. I'm just tired."

Sam: "Okay. Then let's start filming."
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Corey's P.O.V

"YO WHAT IS UP MY GUNTHERS! I'm here with Sam, Colby, and Devyn!" And today we are -

Colby looks a little tired, I'm gonna say something to him.

Corey: "We're cutting the video here. I know we didn't even start but, I need to talk to Colby. Alone."
"Let's go into the living room for a sec? K?"
"Colby?"

Yeah Corey?"

Corey: "You okay, you look a little pale?"

"I'm always pale."

Corey: "Yeah I know but you just look different. I just wanted to ask if you're okay"

"Dude I'm fine! We could've kept filming, seriously I'm just tired."

Corey: "Okay. Just, you know you can tell me anything right?"

You can't tell him.
Don't tell him. He can't help you.
Keep our little secret.
I'm warning you.

"Yeah I know."

Corey: "Ok good. Grab something to eat and then we can start filming again."

"Mkay."

I walk to the kitchen. I'm not that hungry, I'll just lie. I feel bad doing that but, I don't need food. I'll look and feel better if I don't eat.
Water is fine.

Sam: "Colby, you ready?"

"Yeah. Ready."

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Guys sorry if this chapter was a mess! I'm just getting used to this! Ahhhh