It was a Monday morning and I was surprisingly in a good mood when I woke up. I had a good sleep last night and I was awoken softly by my Mum. I can’t remember my dream but I know it was something to make me sleep with a huge grin spread across my face. It was a lovely day outside, the sun had almost risen, the birds were singing sweetly, there was hardly any traffic and it was a good temperature; not too warm but not too cold. The day seemed a bit too perfect to be true!
After having some breakfast, I did my usual morning routine to get ready and then waited outside my house for Justin to walk me to school. I decided to wear denim shorts and a loosely flowing crop top with my black vans today as it reflected the weather. I waited, and waited, and waited. After ten minutes, Justin still hadn’t arrived. Usually, he is here before I am and is eager to go to school, not for the school work but for his friends. Where is he? Taking out my phone I pressed 1, Justin’s speed dial number, and listened as his phone went to the automatic answer machine. Hanging up, I tried again just in case. This time he answered the phone.
“Urm, hello” His voice sounded rough and tense.
“Justin! Where the hell are you?”
“At school, why? Where are you?”
“I’m waiting outside my house like I have done everyday for seven freakin’ years.” My voice rose slightly but I couldn’t care less.
“Oh, I forgot. Sorry.” Justin mumbled.
“You forgot!? How could you forget walking me to school? That’s like forgetting to go outside with your pants on!” I didn’t mean to sound so mean; I was just really pissed off.
“Like I said, I’m sorry.” He snapped at me. It was supposed to make him laugh, not the opposite.
“What’s your problem!?”I asked.
“I’m just tired alright. Leave me alone.” Justin hung up and I sat there, puzzled by the conversation we just had. Did that really just happen? Justin and I have never fought. Not once, except for play fights. Maybe he really is tired, but he’s been tired before and still remembered to walk with me. Is he ignoring me? If he is, he shouldn’t be because I haven’t done anything wrong! I guess I will have to talk to him at school.
When I realised I had been sat there with my jaw dropped for a few minutes, I decided it would be best to start walking to school. It was a depressing ten minute walk. Usually, it is filled with talking, laughing and pranking from me and Justin but this time, it was silent. The only sound was the trees blowing in the wind and the occasional car driving past. What a great way to start the day!
When I arrived at school, I had some time to go find Justin before lessons started. I knew exactly where he would be; in his first lesson on a Monday – Science. Just like he was when I first met him. However, over the years we changed classes and I am no longer his science partner. I entered the class room to see Justin sat in his seat surrounded by his friends. Ryan turned and looked at me but quickly looked away awkwardly. Chaz did the same and soon, Justin and the rest of the guys followed. They all turned their back to me and avoided any eye contact. Confused by this, I put it down to boys being their usual weird selves and walked over to Justin anyway.
“Hey guys.” I said smiling at everyone. No one responded, it was like talking to a brick wall. “Urm, Justin, can we talk over there for a second?”
“Why?” Justin responded whilst texting away on his phone.
“Just because.”
“Yeah but why?” Justin can be so annoying sometimes.
“It doesn’t matter, just move your butt.” His friends stared at me but they all know who wears the pants in this friendship. They know I can boss Justin around and get away with it because I’m his best friend. Sometimes I don’t realise I’m doing it but no one ever tells me when I am. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t do it all the time… but if Justin needs it, I will. He resisted but got up slowly, so slow I grabbed his hand and pulled him over to the back corner of the room. We stood close, I was leaning against the wall and he was inches away from me.
“Spill.” I said, staring him right in the eyes.
“Spill what?” He said whilst gazing at the poster to the right of him.
“Spill what’s going on to make you such a jerk this morning.” I whispered as I took his chin and made him look me in the eye.
“There is nothing going on!” I gave him a look to let him know I didn’t believe him and he sighed, admitting defeat. “Okay, okay, I’ll tell you. You know your friend Alyssa?” I nodded. “Well, I am going to … to … to erm, ask her to the party on Saturday.”
“Oh, right. When are you going to ask her?” Why does this hurt so much?
“First lesson, she’s my science partner.” I was his science partner, not her.
“Cool. I didn’t know you liked her?” So not cool.
“Yeah, I have done for a while now.” Justin said shyly. Why is my heartbeat so fast!?
“Really? For how long? How come I didn’t know this?”
“Yes really! Since we became science partners. I didn’t know how you would react so I thought it would be best not to tell you.”
“But we tell each other everything!”
“I know.” His head drooped and he looked disappointed in himself for keeping this from me. “That’s why I ‘forgot’ to meet you this morning, I was dreading what you would think about it and I was hoping I would only see you after I asked Alyssa.”
“What do you mean you were dreading what I would think about it?”
“Your opinion means a lot to me Sophia and I was worried you would get-”
“Get what?”
“It doesn’t matter.” Justin said whilst turning to walk away. I grabbed his arm and turned him back to face me, this time he stood closer to me.
“Tell me Justin.”
“I was worried you would get, I don’t know – jealous?” A laugh escaped my lips before I could stop it.
“Jealous? Why would you think that?”
“I don’t know, you seem so attached to me.” I was dumbstruck. Is he really expecting me to believe this!?
“Bullshit Justin. Not all the girls are head over heels for you!” I tried to walk away but he blocked me in by putting both of his arms at my sides.
“Aw c’mon, we both know you feel something more for me!” He winked at me and licked his bottom lip.
“Get over yourself Justin!” I pushed him away and stormed out of the room with everyone watching. Who the fuck does he think he is? Just because I’m a freakin’ girl does not mean I am in love with him. Yeah, I love his so much, as a friend. I didn’t know being a best friend and hanging out with someone is now classed as being ‘attached’! I’m not even attracted to him, am I? I admit he is good looking and totally stops girl’s pulses but not mine. There is no way I’m in love with Justin fucking Bieber.
