More than friends?

Chapter 16

Yugi's POV

It was already late on this Sunday afternoon, and all I did was mope around the house once I was done with all of my house chores. I had sent Yami a few texts but I didn't hear back from him at all and my anxiety was acting up. I was tempted to call him, but I didn't. I didn't want to feel like I was too clingy but I was really worried that I did something wrong for him to not reply back to me.

That's when I got up from my bed and just decided to drive around town and listen to music. This is what I would usually do to clear my mind and I need this more than ever right now. I have so many things running through my mind and I need some music therapy. I grabbed my keys and walked out the door.

I got in my car and put on my music on full blast with the windows rolled down. As I was driving around I had passed by Rebecca's apartment. That's when I got the nerve to go over to her place and tell her what is really on my heart and mind right now. I need to end this now, not only because I have feelings for someone else, but I just don't want to lead her on anymore. I know I haven't been a saint the past few weeks, but I need to grow a pair and end this now before it gets even deeper than it already is. I know this is going to be a tough conversation, but it way passed due.

I parked and walked up to her door. I took a deep breath and finally knocked on the door. I heard her running from the stairs and I can hear her getting closer to the door. The closer she got I felt like my chest was going to burst because of how nervous I was for breaking up with her. She opened the door and she had the biggest smile on her face. That's when my heart began to shatter because she thought this was something that was going to be good...

"Oh Yugi!! I am so glad that you came by! I really thought you weren't going to come by or see one another for a week or so.. I am so sorry what I had said earlier about breaking up and not trusting you. I just need to get passed everything and move forward. I'm just glad that you're here. Come inside." She had said with such a happy and chirpy voice. I honestly feel so bad for doing this... She thinks I am trying to fix this.

"Look, Becca. We need to talk." I said with a very serious tone as I closed the door behind us. She quickly turned around when she heard my tone and I then saw the worry in her eyes. She gripped her fists close together and then sat down on the couch. I then sat on the recliner in front of the couch. We were facing one another and you can feel all the tension and emotion in the room. The room felt so cold.

"I know what you said earlier wasn't something you meant, but honestly we should've just left it at that. I was honestly just waiting for you to call it off with me, but then you took it back. I am here because I need to tell you that we are done and there is nothing we can do or say to fix this. I know I have been distant with you and I have been making excuses but I am done. I love you, but I am not in love with you anymore. I just didn't know what or how to tell you that I didn't see you the same way anymore. I care about you and I always will, but I just want to be friends. I don't see a future with us being together anymore. I guess I received the closure of us getting things fixed and trying again. I have thought about this time and time again, but I am so sorry for doing this. I just don't see you as more than a friend... I hope we can be friends in time." I finally told her everting that I have been feeling for weeks now. I finally got it out and I feel so much better.

Then I looked at her and I couldn't tell she wanted to cry or to beat the shit out of me. Honestly, if she wanted to beat the shit out of me, I wouldn't blame her. She looked at me straight in my eyes and then walked close to me. She then grabbed my face and looked deep into my eyes. Green sad eyes meet violet eyes, and I then see the tears begin to form in her deep green eyes. My heart ached for her, but I couldn't live in this lie anymore.

"You don't love me anymore? How can you go one day from wanting to marry me to not loving me anymore? I just don't get it..." I looked away and sighed. "Look at me when I am talking to you. I deserve answers dammit. Like is there someone else? Like..." I then looked at her like she said but I got up from the recliner. I didn't know how to answer her but I didn't want to tell there was someone, not yet at least.

"I honestly just woke up one day and they went away. That's honestly all I can say and I wish I could tell you more but I can't. I'm sorry." I looked at her and she got up from the couch. Her sad eyes turned into angry eyes and I began to walk closer to the door because I knew what was about to happen. I know her pretty well and she is either going to hit me, yell me to get the hell out or all of the above. "Yugi go home. I'll have your things for you tomorrow and I want my stuff back as well. Just text me when you're on your way and I will never speak to you again after that." She said with a monotone voice. There was no emotion and I knew that I broke her. I feel really bad, but I couldn't lie anymore.

"I'm sorry Rebecca." I walked out the door and I felt so much relief on my shoulders. I knew that I had hurt her and that hurt me some, but I felt better knowing that I was no longer leading her on anymore. I'm glad that I did this because it was getting so tiring living like this. I finally got in my car and I looked at my phone and I saw a name I had been looking forward to seeing all day. I opened the text from him.

'Hey Yugi, sorry about being a ghost after our date. I sorta broke my phone first thing this morning and I am too new to this town and I got lost trying to find the mall.... Anyways, I found the mall finally and got my phone fixed. I didn't mean to ignore you, but I couldn't text because the screen was completely done. Anyways, done with my rambling. I am just trying to say, I would like to hear from you when you get a chance. I missed you today(:'

I smiled and I put the phone back in my pocket. I then drove home and hurried home so I can finally text Yami without having guilt.

This is day one of a new beginning, and I am ready to see what's next for me.