More than friends?

Chapter 19

I can't believe I stayed up so late when I knew that I had to open this morning. I am so mad at myself but in the end it was worth it, well to me it is at least. I really did enjoying talking to Yami and just having some good heart to heart conversations and just being so transparent and honest with one another. I am really starting to like this guy a lot, but I still need to learn about him and his past. I need to know if there is anything that I need to know before I give him my heart and I get too involved with my feelings.

*5AM*

I finally get to the store and unlock the door and set the alarm off. I walk in the office and look at  who I have for the day. I get everything set up and get ready for the day. All my people come in and we are having a great day. Then towards the end of my shift I hear someone talking about Yami and how someone hung out a few weeks ago and did some stuff...

My heart sunk... Yami and I have been talking or should I say getting to know one another for a little over a month... So from what I heard. He did something with someone a few weeks ago? I mean I shouldn't care since I just recently became officially single... Ugh this actually hurts. Like should I say something? Ignore it?... I then hear it's from someone who I thought was a friend of mine.. Tea.

She saw us together... Yet she went for it? Let alone he went for it?... I am so confused right now. I continued to work and try to ignore what I had heard but it really bothered me. I looked at the clock and it was almost that time for me to leave. I then hear someone's voice that I wasn't expecting to hear. It was him... I didn't know what to say or what to do.  I just zoned him out and I honestly wanted to cry and just go home. I wish I didn't hear this... Now I feel like an idiot. 

"Hey there cutie." A voice that I loved hearing, but also someone I didn't want to talk to right now. He then touched my shoulder to get my attention, and I finally looked at him. I did the best smile I could do, but it hurt to smile when I am hurting on the inside right now. Like why would he do things with her when he was talking to me... I wanted to cry when I looked at him in the eyes. 

"Oh hi. Well, it's been a day. I just need to go." I said when I looked at him and started walking the other direction away from him. I then hear him call my name and I just continued to walk away but he catches up to me...

"Hey what's up? You're not going to leave me in the dark when I know that something is wrong. I know something is bothering, and I want to know what is bothering you right now before you leave. You were fine when I was texting you a few hours ago and I know when you're not okay from your texts." I then look at him and I did a small painful smile at him.

"Here isn't the right place. Maybe tomorrow night when we close together." I said when I looked at him and I could tell that he didn't like that answer. He then looked into my eyes and I got teary eyed.

"Yugi... Come here after my shift. Please? I can't wait a whole day... I also know you want to talk about this in person and not on the phone. So please..." I looked away and nodded. I then walked away and went to my car...

I got in the car and just cried. I feel so freaking stupid. Like how do I get out of a toxic relationship to someone who has been messing around while getting to know me... HE KNEW WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON WITH ME... Yet, messed around and played with me emotions. I called off a relationship because he showed me that there was something new and hopeful for me. Then I find out about this... I don't know what to do right now..

I finally got home and just laid on the couch. I had no motivation to do anything and just laid on the couch all in my feelings. I looked at my phone and it was already 5PM. I had gotten off at 2 so I've been on the couch for 3 hours just in my feelings and thoughts. I then looked at my phone and I saw messages from Yami. I had mixed feelings about this and I didn't want to read them. This honestly hurts a lot more than I had expected. I then think to myself that if this hurts when we are just talking... What if we become more and then we break up? To think about it... it would destroy what's left of my heart and I don't want to know how I would feel...

I then finally gain some courage to read the texts...

'Yugi... I need to know what's going on. You tell me everything and this is really killing me knowing something is bothering you this much...'

'Hey.. I really hope that you come here to talk.'

'I'm sorry... I think I know what's wrong...'

I sigh and read the texts... I finally reply to him.

'Hey, I'll try and meet you tonight. I'm pretty tired. I didn't get much sleep and it's been a long day.'

I wanted to say so much more, but I didn't think having this kind of a conversation would be the best to have over texts. I honestly don't feel like seeing him tonight... How can a goodnight to the next day completely change like that? I just want to rewind time and not have today happen. I feel so stupid right now... How can I go from something so bad to something else that's just as bad.. If not worse.  It just doesn't seem like I will find someone who won't hurt me, lie to me or use me. This is getting old...

I feel so broken..