More than friends?

Chapter 20

Atem's POV

My heart sank when I knew what was wrong with Yugi... He found out one of the things that I had wanted to talk to Yugi about before we got serious. I wanted to be the one to tell him... I didn't want him to hear it from someone else. I knew what I did was wrong, but I wanted to be the one to tell him my skeletons that are in the closet. I knew exactly how he found out. 

Tea was probably gossiping about it with another co-worker around Yugi and was hoping he would hear. Well, he sure did hear... I wish I didn't have a moment of weakness with her a few weeks ago. This was before my little date that I had with Yugi. It doesn't make me any better of a person, but I still somewhat thought about it. I had a moment of weakness and I wasn't sure just yet if Yugi was going to break up with Rebecca. 

It was one of my random days off when Yugi was working at night and I was bored out of my mind and well in the mood as well... I really wished that Yugi had been off or I would've been distracted from all this. I was on my social media app messaging a few people and well Tea had messaged me what was I doing. We had messaged awhile and then kind of started flirting and that's when I told her to come over to 'chill'. We didn't have sex, but we didn't just kiss. We did fool around. 

She had stayed awhile and then my phone lit up and it was Yugi letting me know that he was off. I was happy that he had messaged me, but I looked next to me and Tea was still there. I was doing my own thing once we had messed around for maybe 30ish minutes. I looked at the clock and she had been there for 3 hours. I didn't even realize it until Yugi had messaged me. I was just watching my shows and doing my own thing once we were done. 

I then looked at her trying to figure out a nice way for her to leave so that I can just go to my room and message Yugi for a bit. I then thought to myself on how I should play this...

"Hey Tea, it's been nice hanging out... But I need to get to bed soon. I have an 8 o'clock morning class and I need some sleep." I then looked at her and gave me this look like I was crazy. I looked at her waiting for a response and I got nothing. I then bit my lower lip trying to come up with another way of her getting to leave. I really regret doing this with her... I don't know why I let my hormones get the best of me. 

"Well I'm going to bed, you can stay but I'm going to my room to crash. Lock the door before you leave okay?" I then walked off into my room hoping that was a big enough hint for her. I laid in my bed texting Yugi for maybe 10 minutes and that's when I heard her leave. I looked out the window to make sure that she had left. Her car was gone. FINALLY. I sighed with so much relief and continued to messaged Yugi.

During that time I was thinking about telling Yugi the mistake that I had did. I decided to wait until Yugi and I were a little more serious and as well as him being single. Besides Tea hardly ever worked and so I thought to myself that her and Yugi wouldn't work together for awhile. Well I was wrong..

I also didn't think she was going to say anything because she had her chance when she saw Yugi and I together. I played it so cool, but I was completely nervous when I had seen that she called to us. I really thought she was going to make a scene, but she didn't. I thought that she didn't really think whatever we had did was a big deal since we hadn't talked about it all, she hadn't messaged me about it, and she didn't make a scene about it. I  just thought she didn't care enough to tell everyone, well I was wrong. 

The one person I truly cared about was hurt and I am the one who caused it. I was trying to prevent him from being hurt again. I had no idea how I was going to fix this, but all I knew is that I needed to see him today. I know in my heart that was probably not going to happen, but I also feel like he would because he's the type of person who would to figure everything out as soon as possible. 

I was in a terrible mood at work, I did my work but a straight up ass to everyone. All I wanted to do was talk to Yugi and apologize to him. I would sneak off and text him when I had the chance. It wasn't helping, but I just want to fix this. I really care about him and I want to tell him how this happened... I feel like a tool right now and I know that's probably how he sees me know when I wanted him to see me more than just a tool. I don't deserve him and I just suck. 

Even if he doesn't want anything more with me.. I would at least want to be friends with him still. He makes me feel happy, I can be myself and just makes me want to have new adventures together. I just like being near him and I would hate to have him out of my life. Now that I have him in my life I don't want him out of it. I want to look him in those beautiful eyes and tell him how sorry that I am.

I will do anything to make him happy and for him to feel like he's the best damn thing that has happened to me in a long ass time...