A/N:
I mean. It's very common to most of the teenagers nowadays to feel this uncertain mood of "jealousy" which leads to severe pain inside called "heartbreaks."
This is basically not my story, and I'm not looking forward for this to be one of my love life experiences. All I wanna say is that.
"You'll never know love without pain."
.. I also experienced jealousy, but it's not that serious. All I can say is I'm happy with mine. :)
Start:
"Hi I'm Jane Marie. I live in Europe. Well I am really born in the Philippines but since I was three, my parents and I already migrated to Europe. They say I answer math problems easily, familiarize science formulas that fast, memorize english words and vocabulary simply. In short, a typical nerd with huge eyeglasses, freckles on the cheeks and braces. But I don't care what other people would say, all I could say is. I'm proud of who i am right now. That's all thank you." A not-so long speech I said infront of the class.
As usual noone clapped except our teacher and Janna. Janna is a geek not a nerd, she stayed with me through all the bullies and victories. So much for that. After I finished stating my not-so long speech, a guy with brownish hair and brown stupid amazing eyes stood straight on the door. Wearing his black shiny sling bag from CK. He's Arvin. My crush ever since. <3
I stared at him for a long time, until the whole class noticed and start laughing and teasing me like
"You're soooo feelers. Arvin? Would like someone like you? In your dreams" Makayla shouted. A popular girl who likes Arvin. Everyone else laughed with her and threw pieces of papers to me. I tried to stay strong. But I can't help it. Tears start flowing.
"Stop it guys. What the hell is wrong with you? What did Jane Marie do to you? Can you guys just stop it." Arvin said while defensing me. He said it with his thick irish accent <33
"Are you okay" he asked.
"Oh yes. Thanks. A lot. Sorry for bothering you." I said
"It's okay. Here's a handkerchief. You can keep it. Welcome." He said while he ran away like a cheetah.
I smiled at his handkerchief and held it tight. This might be the worst and as well as the best day ever.
I walked to the corridor. I saw Arvin, with his stupid brown eyes again and brownish hair. I think this is the time to confess, I know it's so fast. But maybe he likes me also. I mean I couldn't waste the opportunity. So I walked straight to him and handed his handkerchief. He smiled at me. I became more confident.
"Arvin. Can I confess to you something"
He said "okay sure"
So I went on. "Arvin. I like you eversince, I mean I fell inlove with you. I mean Im a nerd but i could love you perfectly. Please say you love me tooo."
Before I could finish I saw him on the phone and saying
"Wait babe im talking to someone call you when im done."
In that my heart stopped beating.
Shit really happens.
He looked up at me and said
"What was that again? Sorry I was on the phone."
I just smiled and said "nothing. I forgot bye."
I walked away while sobbing my tears.
Shit shit. Fuck. I hate my life.
