My love for Loki

Untitled Part 19

I have to say that having Loki stay at Avengers tower isn't the greatest idea but at least we can keep an eye on him. I stop outside his room or should I say cell. He hasn't left this room since he got here. No one visits him, no one interacts with him, nothing. He is in complete isolation and I have to say I feel bad. it's hard being in complete isolation, it makes you feel like you're alone, that you aren't loved. I knock but he doesn't answer, I walk in and see him sitting in the corner. he looks like he hasn't slept in days. I set the food down on the table before moving over to him. He's staring at nothing, he looks so... numb. I place a hand on his shoulder
"Loki?" he looks at me and I feel my heart break. His eyes are so broken the once bright green eyes are now black without a soul. he needs to leave this room, he needs to leave this tower, he needs fresh sunlight.
"take a shower and get ready. i'll be back in a half hour" I stand and move towards the door. I feel a shaky hand wrap around my wrist, I look back and see him look at me
"why" he sounds so broken
"because i'm getting you out of here rather they like it or not"
After a half hour I walk back into his room finding him looking a lot better than before. I smile at him.
"ready" he nods his head
"good" I walk over to him and disable his tracker that was locked around his ankle.
"lets go" I lead him to the garage where my car his. It starts with a roar.
I drive outside the city and to the country and through the woods until I reach a house that's hidden from the outside world. I pull up to it and get out. I smile as I take a deep breath of fresh air.
"what is this place" I look at Loki
"its my escape away from all of it. away from the city, away from judging eyes, its the place where i'm myself" I walk inside and find nothing has changed. I look behind me and see Loki looking around with caution.
"you don't have to worry. you can be free here" he doesn't say anything just looks around some more.
"do want some wine, I know its not the same a mead but hey its still good" he looks at me, his eyes hold some kind of hope like someone actually cares for him.
"i would like that"
"great make yourself at home, I'll be right back" I go down to my cellar and get one of the many bottles of wine that I used Tony's credit card to but with. I grab two glasses and the bottle opener before moving back to the living room where Loki is looking at some of the pictures on my tables and wall. I set the things down and open the bottle and pour two glasses before handing one to Loki. He watched me the entire time I opened and poured the glasses. I take a big sip in front of him to prove that its not drugged.
"Don't worry about it being drugged. I saw you watching, i'm not that type of person" I go upstairs and I can tell he's following me, I open one door to reveal my library that I built into my home.
"i know you like books, no one knows about this library or what's in it, help to any book you want." I go down stairs and leave him to have some kind of peace.
The day I slowly turning into night, going into the kitchen I pull out some food to prepare for a meal. As I cook I hear footsteps enter the kitchen and something get set down on the island. I turn and stare at the book that Loki placed on it.
"This book is your entire inner monologue" I nod my head and look at him.
"Yeah"
"you were put into isolation for ten years"
"all because I was a hydra assassin, sent to kill everyone in shield"
"AND SHIELD JUST SENT YOU AWAY!!" he yells, he's starting to get angry
" I did a bad thing Loki, i'm not going to say that I didn't deserve it but it was one of the hardest things I have ever been through. I was completely alone, no one checked on me for days on end, they sent in a robot to deliver food and water to me so I wouldn't starve to death. they wanted to break me but they didn't and now i'm here. five years later I still feel the need to get away from all of them, to make myself feel alive and not some missionary" I grab the plates of food and handed him one. I walk out of the kitchen just leaving Loki to stare at the book.
The ride home was dead silent. I couldn't read Loki to save the life of me all I knew was something in him changed. 

The tower seems so quiet like no one is there. We are still silent as the elevator takes us up. as soon as the door opens and all hell breaks loose.
"WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!!"
"loki could have killed you"
"we were about to send a search party for you" All the bickering, all the fighting, I just can't take it, they're blaming Loki, me and him spending time together. They think I was under some mind control. my resolve finally snaps
"WILL YOU ALL JUST SHUT UP!!" Everyone including loki stare at me with wide eyes
"How can you blame him for this. he didn't take his tracker off him, I did. he didn't leave this tower, I took him out. HE DIDN'T BRAIN WASH ME! IT WAS MY DECISION!
you are all blaming him for something I did on my own. not one of you have actually looked at him since he's been here. you put him in isolation, put him in some cage like he's an animal"
"he is an animal y/n look what he did to new York"
"i was put into isolation for ten years for trying to kill everyone that had to do with shield. you may not believe it but they kept me away from human contact for ten years. no contact, no interaction, all alone in my own thoughts. have none of you wondered where the hell I came from. or how they even knew where to find me. Five years that's how long I've been free. I know the pain of being alone, being afraid, feeling that no one loves you when. I won't let that happen to someone else, especially someone that I care about.
He is going to be free to leave his room, He is free to come to my personal library that I have here that no one else is allowed in. It's time for all of you to get off your high horse and realize this is a human being not an animal."
I walk away extremely pissed off, everyone else is just left standing there. Loki looks just as surprised as everyone else. He quickly follows y/n's footsteps, it leads him to a door that he never noticed before. He gently opens it and he finds a library. I just sit curled up on the couch letting the tears stream down my face. he kneels down in front of me, he gently cups my cheeks and makes me look at him. he smiles and kisses my forehead before scooping me up in his arms and carrying me to his room. he pulls the covers back and gets in. he covers the both of us and holds me close to his chest. By this time I've calmed down and my crying have turned into sniffles. he rubs my back.
"I'm sorry" I whisper to him, he looks down at me with wide eyes
"sorry for what"
"for them, all the blaming, everything. I just wish that we could just stay at the house away from all of this"
"we can" I look up at him with big eyes
"just the two of us" I nod my head and smile, he returns it before resting our foreheads together. Today has been one of the best days, we are never alone.