~ 𝓗𝓪𝔀𝓴𝓼 𝔁 𝓡𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓮𝓻 ~

6. Always there for you ( part 2 )

You woke up in not sucha good mood. Every part of your body was in pain. Maybe that's how emotions are ruining your body. Emotions like pain, guilt and anger. You deserved it after all. For what you did. You weren't waking up the whole night but you felt like that wasn't true.

You got up from your bed and entered the hallway. You wen't down to the kitchen to make something to eat, because you didn't have dinner yesterday. You felt like you were about to die.

Didn't know what to do you decided to sleep the whole day. You needed the time for yourself, and the first of all you needed was to be alone. You took some movies and some food and put them on your bed so you can watch it and eat at the same time. Tears were still slipping down your cheeks. It became like a habit...

Time skip

You didn't even notice but the time flew really fast. Even you got up pretty late.

It was 9 PM.

You were watching some of your favorite movies like Titanic, The Notebook, The Fault In Our Stars, and some other romantic shit. You were totally screwed up by your own emotions. Also, for the whole day, you never got out of your nightdress. You love to sleep in it. Especially because you didn't have anything underneath. You loved to sleep or naked or in that nightdress. You read somewhere that if you sleep naked you will be more relaxed and you will wake up the next morning completely rested. It's scientifically proven that is healthy, so you decided you should try it. And believe it or not it was totally awesome.

After finishing your movie marathon, you notice that everything you had of your food was gone. Damn! You really were screwed up. You were so lazy to dress up and go to a store. After all who knows if there was any store in your neighborhood working at this hour. It's not that you were hungry at all but maybe later you will be, and you won't have anything.

You cleaned your bed from the food. You went down to the kitchen to get some water when you heard the knock at the door. You stood there waiting for the person on the other side of the door to say something.

Seeing that there was no response you decided to ask first.

''Who is it?'' inside of yourself you started to panic and have some horroric thoughts.

''(Y/N) it's me. Please...can I come in?'' the stranger said. You immediately recognized the voice. So you opened the door. It was Hawks.

''What are you doing here at this hour? Are you a stalker or something?'' you said coldly.

''What? Of course not. Please we need to talk.'' he said with a calm voice and calm expression on his face. After a second you noticed that he wasn't wearing his usual hero costume. Actually he was completely dressed different. He wore a black shirt, with a one or two buttons unlock so his chest was exposed slightly, black pants and some really cool black boots. His shirt was slightly tight so his figure is pretty visible.

'Fuck this, he's black as my mental state right now but incredibly hot and attractive in the other way. It's gonna screw me up even more' You thought in yourself. Without much hesitating you let him in. You weren't expecting him and somewhere deep inside you were appreciating it. He was holding the bag of groceries in his right hand. 'Well that's good. Lucky me. Someone else bought it for me.'

''(Y/N)...are you feeling okay? You don't look so good.'' he asked me with a serious but yet concerned expression on his face.

''No, I'm not. Is that....'' you stopped controlling your tongue so it won't say something you will regret. ''Listen...'' you looked at the ground then back at him ''I actually wanted to...apologize. For everything I said. I...am...my mental state is pretty screwed up.''