Never Forget Me (Kakasaku Love Story)

Distance

Sakura's POV

I started to walk with the guards to my parents house. I wanted Kakashi to come. But he jumped into the trees and disappeared. I tried to ignore my disappointment and continued walking. 

"Sakura!" My mother yelled as she ran to the door to meet me. She yelled for my father as he came to meet me too. We sat on the floor together hugging. I cried as I felt all the love and caring they had for me. I knew I was loved here. 

I spent about a week settling in, learning things about my friends and hearing stories about myself. The doctor said I could get my memories back in a couple days with some special treatment, but that I shouldn't get my hopes up. I haven't seen Kakashi since I got here though. I wonder where he lives. Maybe I can go meet him. I walk to the Hokage's office to ask. She gives me the address written on a little piece of paper. Holding it the whole way there I think about what could go wrong with meeting surprising him. I'm nervous. I don't want him to be mad at me, or think its weird that I came there.

I hold my breath as I knock on the door. He answers in just pants and his tight shirt with his mask connected. My heart flutters when I see him. I feel my face blush a bit. But as I look at him, the sadder his eyes get. 

"Can I come in?" my voice is small and weak, the fear of rejection taking over as I look down at my shoes.

"Sure." He said walking away from the door leaving it open for me to close behind me. 

"I think we should ta-" before I could say anymore he cut me off.

"No. I don't think we should talk. I think you should stay away from me. I'm a dangerous person. A girl like you shouldn't be friends with a man like me." His voice is something I've never heard in his voice before. It sounded almost angry. But also hurt. "That's all I have to say. Now I think you should go." I feel the tears in my eyes about to spill over as I turn to leave. As I go to open the door, my hand stops before it gets to the handle. 

"No." My voice is still quiet, but all my tears vanished and all my hurt turned to rage. I turn around to see Kakashi's face. He looks confused. Like he couldn't understand what I just said. He opens his mouth to say something, but I cut him off.

"No, I won't leave. I'm going to stay here and you're going to tell me why. Why did you spend so much time with me at the hospital back in the Sand Village if you were just going to ignore me as soon as I got out? Why have you been ignoring and avoiding me? You told me we were friends before. Why can't we be friends now?" I'm basically yelling. He stands there. His face is a mix of expressions I can't explain. Fear? Anger? Confusion? Sadness? 

I look down at the ground, he isn't speaking. I turn to leave thinking nothing I had said got through to him about how I was feeling. I don't know what else to say. I put my hand on the handle and turn it. He puts his hand on my shoulder and grabs me before I could open the door. He spins me around and pulls me into his chest. His hand moved to my waist and his other to the back of my head. He holds me tight and I can feel him trembling. His knees start to give out as I follow him to the floor. I sit there, I don't know for how long. But I don't want to be the first one to let go. 

He pulls away slightly and moves his hand from the back of my hand and touches my face. I can feel my head suddenly began to pound as soon as he touches my face. A memory. I feel the pain my body was in. I see my body bleeding. I see him in front of me. It's blurry, fuzzy but at the same time, perfectly vivid. 

I stand up fast and back up. I put my hands up in front of my chest and take a couple steps back, I couldn't leave his house fast enough. I ran home and locked myself in my room.

Did he do this to me?

Kakashi's POV

I touched her face. She was scared of me. I haven't seen that look on her face since Koshigakure. But this one was more than just fear. She was terrified. I don't understand what happened. One minute she's wanting to be close to me. The next she runs away from me. 

Kakashi, this is for the best. Get it together. Everything I do, I do it for her. I almost broke and told her everything that happened. I almost let her in again. It's better this way. You're not good for her. She'll forget about you. I know I'm right. But I just want her to stay with me. I want her with me always.

I want to see her at 3 in the morning, wine drunk making cookies in the kitchen. I want to see her in her pajamas with morning breath and messy hair right after she wakes up from sleeping in my arms. I want to grab her waist and kiss her cheek as she gets ready for work. I want to see her. I want her. I need her.

I walk to the bathroom and put my hands on the sides of my sink looking up at myself in the mirror. I try to convince myself to not go looking for her. I can make a guess to where she is. The hill. I need to go to the hill. I know Ino took her there a couple days after we got back. It's probably her favorite spot still.

I failed at talking myself out of going and I grab my jacket and shoes and start to run up to the hill. Trying to convince myself to turn back with every step, but my body has a mind of its own. I stop at the tree closest to the hill and climb to the top. I can see her. Her back is to me. She's looking at the sky like she used to. She's not any different than before. She still has the same little quirks as she used to. She's so beautiful. She takes my breath away every time I look at her. Every time I think about before we went on the mission that changed everything. The time up on the hill. The time before and after the bottle of wine. I thought there would be more nights like that. I thought I was going to have the courage to tell her I love her. Maybe if I had we wouldn't be in the position. I try to convince myself one last time to go home. But I feel my body move forward and walk up the hill.