Close As Strangers - A 5 Seconds Of Summer Fan Fic

Contemplating

Are we wasting time,

Talking on a broken line,

Telling you I havent seen your face in ages,

I feel like we're as close as strangers,

I won't give up,

Even though it hurts so much,

Every night I'm losing you in a thousand faces,

Now it feels we're as close as strangers.

Three months had past, I was 30 weeks pregnant and Michael still hadn't delivered on his promise. I honestly didn't know how I was coping. I was lost without him. There were days when I woke up and I just felt like giving up. I know that it isn't fair on Michael, but when you havent seen the guy you love in ages, it gets so hard. He's missed out on so many things, like the baby ultrasounds, first kicks and all the things parents should be doing while expecting a baby. Putting the nursery together was so hard. I had no family and my friends had abandoned me when they thought I was going to be a single mother. When I need Michael most, he was never there. Giving up on us seemed like the most logical idea. But I couldn't do it. Not after eveything we had been through.

The worst part was not knowing what was happening on tour. For all I knew the boys could be telling me one thing to make me feel good, but be doing something completely different. I know that Michael is loyal, but when you have thousands of screaming girls throwing themselves at you, its a bit hard not to give in.