FALLING FOR A DOLAN

CHAPTER 17

All I heard was beeping sounds and I already knew I was still alive. The amount of anger i have inside me I could just explode. I slowly open , I glance over to see Hailey asleep on the couch next to Grayson and Ethan. My mom walks in with a nurse. "Izzy you awake" with my moms loud voice the 3 stooges woke up in the process. I turn to face the window feeling embarrassed that my best friend is seeing me like this. "Can everybody just leave me alone with Hails please" I hear footsteps and a door close I look back to Hailey who looks as if she has been crying for days. "How long was I out for" "Almost 2 weeks" I watch the nurse check the monitors and walk back out. "How did you know" "Grayson phoned your dad said he was worried about you and when we knocked on the bathroom door and you didn't open we knew something was wrong. But seeing your lifeless body lay in that bathtub Ella will haunt me for the rest of my life I never want you to feel alone and feel as if you have nobody to talk to because you have me Isabella"

She starts crying and I feel hurt for what I put everybody through. I see Grayson peeping through the window. I motion for him to come inside, "Hey Isabella how are you feeling" "Okay I guess, how about you" "Not good Bella" "I will leave you two alone I am going to go raid the vending machines with Ethan" Grayson runs his hand through his hair making me want to grab him and just smash our lips together. "This is all my fault, and i know you don't want to hear about this but I am going to tell you anyways again I never cheated on you with Madison she came onto me you just walked into the room at the wrong time. I love you Bella, you all I think about when I wake up being around you makes me happy I don't care about anything else If i have to quite Youtube to be with you that is what i will do. I am ready to give up my whole life to start new with you."

Wow he really does love me. "I will never ask you to do that for me as much as I make you happy you make other happy Grayson. I love you I really do I want to make this work but I need time to heal. Yes I am alive but I am not fully out of that dark place yet." "I want to help you get out of the place Bella you can't do this alone" My mom walks in interrupting our conversation. "I need to talk with both of you" Looking at my mom oddly "what wrong mom" "I think we should have this conversation when you feeling a bit better" then she walks out weird she looked worried but i brush it off and look at Grayson.

"I messed up Isabella" "What do you mean" "Out of anger and rage I took to Instagram live and vented my anger out and now the whole world knows about what happened to you" "That good Grayson I am glad everybody knows now I can make a difference in somebody else life by talking about my issues and problems." He got up from his chair and lays down next to me. "I missed you so much Bella" "Trust me I missed you too" I lay with my head between his neck and wrap my arm around his waist I longed for this my safe place.
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I was released from hospital and now I have to go for counseling that said I should be glad they don't put me in a mental hospital. Grayson hasn't left my side at all I don't even think he knows what a bed feels like my mom said it was okay for him to sleep at our house why I don't know even to the point that he is allowed to sleep in my room. My parents are just acting really weird. Me and Grayson aren't dating again but just on really good friendship terms.

Arriving home I walk into my room and just fall down onto my soft bed "I missed you so much" "I wish you can show me that much attention" Grayson says as i stick out my tongue. "I brought my vlogging camera so we can film a video today explaining everything" "Sounds cool Let me just tidy up my room before we start you can set everything up" I started packing away clothes and just placing everything neatly if the dolan fanbase hate me that much the last thing i want is for them to say I am untidy. "I am ready when you are babe" I look at Grayson with sad eyes "Sorry I didn't mean to say that" "It's okay will take time to get use to i guess"

*STARTING VIDEO*

"Whatsup guys so today video is basically to explain everything that been happening for the past few months. This is Isabella as some of you know she is my ex girlfriend but really good friend as well we met by pure fate. Funny story really I stopped next to her at a red light and I heard the most angelic voice coming from the car next to me when our eyes locked I knew that this girl will be my everything. But that was all it was a minute of staring into her eyes and then she drove away. I thought I would never see her again Los Angeles is huge but by luck we landed up at the same exact beach moment later and the rest is history."

I stop Grayson as i needed to use the bathroom, "I will be right back" I head to the bathroom and quickly do my business in the process my stitches must of came loose. I rummage through my draw looking for band aid when I see something that catches my eye oh my goodness this can't be happening. "GRAYSON" I scream he runs into the bathroom. "What the hell is wrong" I point to the thing I saw took him a few minutes to register. "It can't be can it Bella" "I don't know I am freaking out Gray" He walks back into the room and then returns with the vlogging camera. "Why you vlogging this" "Because if it is so then this is going to be a completely different video" "Let's go to the drug store or target" He nods we walk into the room as Grayson grabs his wallet, phone and car keys.

The drive over to Target was awkward to say the least Grayson looked scared I was in a state of panic. We reach Target and head inside to the aisle we needed to be in. "What do I buy Grayson, there is so many to choose from." "Just take everything" I give him a what the hell look but he just grabs one of each. We pay for the goods and head back home. "Do you want to get something to drink or eat" "Yeah In and Out will do"

We arrive at home and head straight into the room he turns the camera back on "Are you ready Bella" I shake my head he throws the 10 pregnancy test on the bed "Grayson I don't need to pee" "But babe you have too" "I literally just did few minutes ago" "Then go drink water till you have too Isabella" He says very aggressively I barge out the room and walk downstairs to grab a bottle of water, walking back up I hear a very familiar voice coming from my brothers room. I roll my eyes my best friend just doesn't want to listen. I walk back into the room with Grayson frantically typing away on his phone. "It says here you can miss your period due to stress which you been stressing a lot lately" "Let's pray its that." I open the water and down it in a split second. After a few minutes I needed to pee I grab the container we got and go ahead and pee in it.

"Grayson I am finished" he walks in with the test and camera he positions the camera on my bathroom counter and we start opening up the test. "Okay Bella you can dip all of it in" "the container is to small Grayson let's just do it one by one" we take turns dipping the sticks in the container and placing it on the counter. We both step back not wanting to look "we need to wait 3 minutes" I set the timer on my phone as we both sit down on my bathroom floor not uttering a single word.

The 3 minutes was up "You go look Isabella" I nod and take a deep breath I get up from the floor and walk over to the counter. It won't be it's just the stress I tell myself. I down at all the test some having two lines others saying pregnant and the rest having crosses. I burst into tears as Grayson comes over and hugs me. "It's okay Isabella it's okay we can make something work"

"I'm pregnant Grayson"