Battle Scars (magcon)

Chapter 17

Dying is something everyone does. We've all experienced before, we've just never have died yet. When a person dies, people cry, people clap, until we ourselves die. When a stranger dies, you feel a tiny tear in your heart. When a friend dies, you feel a tear in your heart saying that their gone. When a best friend /family member dies, you shut down momentarily. You feel like the other half of you, the happy half of you, has left with them. And when you die, you feel happy. Like as if you've finally done something that made you happy.

As I saw everyone else freaking over their own deaths, I stay frozen. I stare off wondering where I might end up, heaven or hell? I then think about my ex Jasmine. We still talk a lot, almost everyday. And I've never lost feelings for her. I love her. "Hey Cam!"Hayes snaps me out of my thought," bro were you thinking about that chick that killed herself last year? You kinda teary-eyed." He made his finger go from his eye to his chin like a tear would. "Listen kid. You may think she was just "some girl" but she is my everything. Yes, she was drama, and yes I might have lost some friends because of her, maybe gotten sick from over thinking about the problems, but I loved her more than you can ever imagine. She was an amazing person, and just because she killed herself does NOT mean I have lost interest in her! Now, you go run along and have an adventure and hopefully you'll find some common sense." I spit at him before walking off.

----Hayes pov---

I look at the group behind me and awkwardly smile, tears burning my eyes. "He-uhh- he's never, uhh, yelled at me th-that way. I-I-I-I don't know what to do now..." I trail off while walking into a seat that's in the corner. I curl myself into ball and silently start crying. He's always been the cool guy. I can't believe he would tell at me like that... I feel pair of hands wrap around me, meaning that someone felt bad for me. "Listen. He's just scared, and when he's scared, he gets a little mad. You should know this, man! I wouldn't worry about how he yelled at you. Everything is gonna be alright.." The voice trailed off and the pair of hands disappeared. That voice sounded a little too familiar. I look up and see Nash, standing there, smiling at me. I smile back,"Nash. I miss you. I want to be with you, if anyone has to go, I want it to be me. I don't want to be dead, I want to be free! Please.." He faded into nothing before I could say anything else. "Hayes! What's wrong? You look like you've seen a ghost!" Shawn finally wakes up. "I-I did. And I wish that ghost would come back home..." I break out into tears before I could say anything else. "Hayes, it's okay. Everything is fine. Whoever you're thinking about will be home.." Mahongany rubs my back. "No. No he won't..."

"Who is he?" She asks me.

"It's Nash! I want Nash back!" I shout as loud as I can while running out of the room.

I end up in the main hallway, and I see Cam. It's looks like he's been crying for a while.

"Cam, you alright buddy?" I slowly walk towards him. His red eyes look up, and as soon as he sees me, they light up. "Hayes! Oh my god Hayes I thought you would hate me! I'm so sorry for yelling at you, it's just that I miss Jasmine a lot and I'm gonna be the next one to die and I'm not sure what to do!!" He confesses. "Cam, it's fine. I forgive you... I saw Nash. I was crying and he hugged me and said that I might come home, Cam. I get to see Nash again! Isn't that amazing!" U burst, smiling brightly. Cam looks at me, then looks down, his face full of sadness. "Tha-that's great Hayes. I'm proud, t-th-that's amazing. You getting to s-s-s-see you brother and everything," he looks at me and sighs ," I have to go see how Shawn is. I'll be back." He tells me as he walks away. "Yeah, okay. I'll stay down here!" I yell back to him, though it's obvious he doesn't care.

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After about 10 minutes, I walk back up to the room.

"Yeah, Carter said I was gonna die... And Nash said Hayes was gonna die. I just don't know what to do now..." I heard Cameron tell someone. "Man," it sounds like Taylor,"if it happens it happens. I can't do anything about it, and neither can you... Hey man, don't worry about it. Everything is and will be fine.. And if Hayes goes away, I'll make sure he won't. He'll be fine like the rest of us." Taylor assured Cam. Wait, they're trying to ruin my plan? No, they can't be! I've been missing Nash way too much to not go through with this plan! This was where I decided to walk in and break the silence. "Wait. You're going to keep me from dying? And from seeing my brother? I can't believe you!! If y'all were really my friends, y'all would let me die and be will Nash!!" I stand completely shocked after what I just heard come out of my mouth. "Wow Hayes, didn't think you cared that much about dying..." Jacob says as everyone walks out of the room.

God, why am I such a screw up?!