Battle Scars (magcon)

Chapter 4

Cameron's pov

It's been 4 days since Matt's death and things have only gotton worse. Every night I wake up screaming, scared that something bad happened, other nights, I dream of Matt and how he use to laugh at everything.Nash asked if I could come over he said 'we need to get together and talk things out, maybe cry a little, who knows?' So of course, I said yes.

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We walked into Nash's room and saw that it was a mess! There were dirty clothes, food, trash, you name he had it. It was like as if old Nash some how let new Nash move in and that's how it ended up. I looked around a bit then realized, there aren't enough beds.

"Nash, there are only 2 beds in here," Aaron spoke up for me

"There are more beds in the other room," he answered back.

We walked into the other rooms and the beds, then made our way back to Nash's room.

As I looked at all the boys, they the same expression, dead. Dead, depressed, and destroyed. We all had red rims around are eyes and our hair was a mess, Carter was the worse though. He had bags under his eyes, which looked like they haven't slept in ages. His hair was matted really bad. His clothes didn't match, that was the saddest thing I have ever seen. Carter was matts best friend. They were always together, that was until this.

We all were on our phones, like we used to be, then Shawn gets up and goes to the computer. Then we hear a click and Matt's voice fills the room. They were his vines. Aaron said thank you and even though nobody else said, we all knew we needed it. Soon enough, my eyes filled with tears and I started crying, silently, and I stayed like that, until we all fell asleep.

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Shawn pov

Usually, I would wake up to the sound of nine boys laughing, pranking each other, have a great time. But now there were only 8 and I woke up on my own.

I looked around and noticed Nash aimlessly staring the window, his mind seeming to be somewhere else. I wonder how long he's been there. I clear my throat, and he snaps out of it.

" I think we should wake the rest of the boys up." I say, still tired

"Yeah, we don't want my mom to wake them up." He says back slightly laughing, but still holding that smile that says 'I'm not ok'. Once everyone is awake, we go downstairs to the smell of breakfast "Oh good, y'all are awake. I thought I was gonna have to go wake y'all!" She says trying to laugh.

I look at the table as she sets the last thing of pancakes of there.

"Mom there's no need in this much food, it's not like your feeding an army!" Nash says jokingly

"Well feeding nin-eight boys is hard work she says. She just said nine boys as if Matt were still here.

We all ate, then went back upstairs to do nothing but sit around.

Cameron's pov

DING-DONG

I hear come from downstairs.

"Yes I know the boys have to go back"

"Yes but you should see how bad in shape they are, they can't do it. Give them 2 months."we heard Nash's mom say

"Mom! I need you!" Nash yelled.

"Hold on, I'll be right there!" She yelled back.

When she came in to the room, Nash stood and looked her in the eye.

"Why would you tell that man that we would be fine in 2 months?! Do you really think this will be better in 2 months? No. I'm sorry but that's not gonna happen! We need at least 4 or 5 months and even then, we'll still be terrible! So go tell that guy that he's gonna have to wait for his money," And with that he walked out.

"Cam, I think you should go talk to him." Jack G said

"Yeah, I'll be right back," I said before running after him.

I found a couple of minutes later by the lake. I slowly walked up to him, but stepped on a twig so he turned around.

"I can't believe she would do that," he said, facing towards me, he face red and puffy, making it obvious that he had been crying. "I thought she would understand that I can't be fixed on a short amount of time, I need time! I need help. Cam, you're one of my best friends so you know that I can't deal with these kind of things," he said painfully " I want to show you something," He lifted up his sleeves to reveal small red/faded lines. "I get close to things and I feel connected to things. So when I meet people, I make them my best friends and I basically promise myself that I will not let that person get hurt. Well I let Matt get hurt. I stopped after a year ago. Lately I've been trying so hard not to but it's just gets harder and harder to move on with life. Please help me."

"I'll try"

But how do you fix a broken person without getting cut on shards of glass.

You don't.

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Hey guys, so if you didn't know, I got most of this idea from another book that I'm reading called Between The Lines so if you haven't go check out that book, and so ya, stay beautiful!!😚