Battle Scars (magcon)

Chapter 19

Aaron's pov

"Tell them I said hi" I whisper to Shawn before he finally closes his eyes. Forever. Numbness takes over my body and it gets harder to breathe. Crying now, that's an understatement. Crying is when you've been strong for too long. No, this is survival and right now, we're all dying in this thing called lie! The numb lasts for a long time.

Looking at the people around me, I'm the only numb one here. Mahogany is holding a broken Hayes, tears silently slipping down her face. Taylor is in a corner, muttering words that only he understands. Jacob is beside Shawn, singing a song. They've always had that type of bond. Jack J is staring out the window, probably thinking of Jack G... He probably hasn't made it to the boys yet.

My numbness takes completely over my feelings. Then it shuts off. Everything. My tears start falling out of my eyes and I curl up into a ball, shaking. I scream as loud as I can. This isn't fair! Shawn was nice! He didn't deserve anything! Why should he have to die!! "I HATE THIS LIFE!!! WHY DID WE HAVE TO BE CHISEN TO FREAKING GO THROUGH DEATH!! WASN'T MATT ENOUGH?!! I'M DONE WITH THIS AND I'M DINE WITH YOU!!" I get up and run over to the window, pushing Jack out of the way. I look up and whisper quietly "please forgive me for all I have done.." I open the window and jump. I feel free! About half way, though, it gets harder to breathe. 'Hold your breath' I tell myself. Losing consciousness quickly I feel my back land sharply on something. 'I've hit the ground, now I go on' I tell myself. My eyes start getting droopy and I have this sudden urge to sleep. "Tell them I said hi" I say to the people around me before I close my eyes and see the bright light that will take me home.

Jack J pov

Numb. Everything is numb. There's no need in living anymore. I have nothing anymore. Jack, Aaron , Matt, Carter, Nash, Shawn. Dead. Everyone is dead. So what's the point? It doesn't seem like there is a point. "Guys. Why are we still here? At the hospital? It's obvious we have nothing to do here anymore? Shawn died! His leg is on the floor. I don't want to smell death?! Sorry but I'm leaving. Come when y'all gain y'all's minds again."Taylor says out of the blue. Without thinking, I stand and walk out the door, but I don't stop where Taylor is. I don't even know where I'm going at this point. I can't control my legs! "This is for the best." I hear, Jack? "It's going to be okay. You'll be with me." He keeps telling me. "Jack." "Jack." "Jack." His voice quiets, changing into a different voice. "Jack!" I jump up and look to my right, expecting Jack, but seeing the gang. "Oh.." I lay back down in the bed. I try moving but caught by a serge of pain running through my body. Then I take in my surroundings. I'm in a hospital. "What happened?" "Dude. Do you not remember what happened?" Hayes asks me,"you got hit by a bus. Taylor saved you, but he's barely breathing." My breath hitched and I felt tears coming to my eyes. He cared... But I'm not with Jack... "I'm so sorry! I killed our best friend!!" I cried into his shoulder. Why am I so selfish! Why do bad things happen to good people? I guess because we're too nice to let them win...