The Immortal Diaries

LIGHTNING

HEY!

Lightning here.

I think I'm the first one to update this book for the past 6 months, I guess? Oh well. We've all been busy. Projects dito, exams doon. Idagdag mo pa ang quizzes and assignments. I know that I shouldn't complain since I should be used to it because that's what you always do in school. Let me complain, okay?! Complaining is what I do best. 

I've been planning to write an entry here since June but I get lazy and I don't have anything interesting to say. I wouldn't want to bore you with school stuff. So what I did was read our past entries and laugh about it. Especially my entries. 

And holy shit, was I dumb. I sound like a love-sick puppy over Milo. 

For the past three years, I had this massive crush on him. Well, not on him but on my idea of him. I like my idea of him. Is it confusing? I'll explain.

I have no idea who Milo is. I have no idea how he is as a person. All in all, I know of him but I don't know him.

And now we are classmates, I see how he is as a person but now that I do know him, I started to unlike him. I don't like him anymore. Idk, I confuse myself.

Oh well, enough of him.

Here's the thing that I'm currently scared of: COLLEGE.

I don't know why but the idea of college scares me. Maybe it's because I still don't know what course I want to pursue in the future and I'm afraid that if I choose the wrong course I might mess everything up. Maybe it's because as much as I hate highschool, I don't want to leave. I don't want to let go of this sense of familiarity. I may hate everyone there (except for my friends), but I don't want go. Maybe it's because I'm not good at socializing. I'm awkward and I have this bad case of social anxiety that I want to get over. 

UGH.

Oh well. I can't gather my thoughts properly right now. That's it, I guess.

I might regret this update and laugh about it in the future.

Ciao!