Roommates

Chapter 15| Choices

Jamie's Pov

          I rub my eyes once light peaks through. "What are you guys doing?" I say while still half asleep. The tension gets stronger every second that goes by. When I open my eyes more and let my sight come clear, I can see hesitation on Ashton's face and the worries on the others. "Uhh," Ashton barely is able to make out any words to break the silence, "I have something to tell you, but that can wait for tomorrow...when...it's, uh, at a better time." After saying this he looks towards the guys and back at me. "No, just tell me now. I can tell it's something everybody knows except for myself." I say this so that I can finally rid this awful feeling in my stomach that has been bothering me from the moment that I heard what he said. I hear a sigh. "We just got signed by a record label, but that means we have to go to Los Angeles," Ashton says this and looks away immediately. I can tell he is upset. However, how can I be mad at something so amazing for him?

         I smile warmly towards him. "I can't be any more excited than you are." He turns towards me in a shocking manner and cracks a half smile reviling the dimple I had once fallen so in love for at first glance. "When do you have to go?" I ask leaning against my doorway. I can see that his face has gone of the expression that was semi cheerful. "Oh that, uh, well tomorrow." He says this so plainly that it's hard to know what he's feeling. All I can feel is anger...we just started being a couple and now he has to go on the opposite of the country where not only miles keep us apart but time. I can feel Ashton staring at me, but I just take a couple of steps back and shut the door softly behind me and try to go back to sleep.

Ashton's POV

         I watch Jamie as she shuts her door and the silence starts to get to me. "I don't know what to feel right now," I say looking at my hands. I feel a hand on my shoulder, but I don't look at who it is. "Ash, It's okay to feel both excitement and sadness." I can tell that this was Luke. I look up at Jamie's door and all that I feel is guilt. Guilt that I'm leaving so soon after just becoming a couple. "Why does this feel wrong to me?" I ask the guys when I turn my direction towards them. "It's because you love her and you don't want to leave her, but-" Calum gets cut off. Micheal out of the blue says. "I guess you have to make a choice on whether or not your dream or Jamie is more important to you." He just stares at me for a moment before turning his attention elsewhere. Calum scowls at Micheal, "That's basically what I was gonna say...uh...just in a nicer way," Calum rubs the back of his neck nervously, "however you have to choose because if you don't...she will and it's going to break you."

      I lightly pat my head, "you guys are right, but if I choose how will I know if it's the right choice to make?" They take a second to look at each other before Luke answers. "You'll know...just know we will support your decision." I give them a weak smile. I still don't know how I can choose between two things I love. That's when it hit me. "Guys what if I suggest a long distance thing?" They all look at each other and shrugged. "Uh, I'm not sure on how she'd feel about it, but I guess it's worth a shot," Calum says. Luke nods in agreement, but Micheal sighs. "Even if she went along with it who knows how much strain or pain she'll feel after a while," Michael puts his head in his hands, " however, this is a choice you both need to make." With that said Micheal stands up and nods towards to door. Calum and Luke get up, hug me and wished me luck as they walked out the door.

       Once they left I headed to my room to think about how I will tell Jamie what I talked about with the boys. Morning came and I walk out to the kitchen where I see Jamie making coffee. "Morning, sweet cheeks," I say with a grin. She turns towards me and smiles then going back to what she was doing. My smile goes away and I ask, "Can we talk later?"