rose epidemic

petunia

you and tord have been together for a while now, matt.

almost 5 months.

5 months of...... pure happiness?
not a single argument...
or disagreement....
this isnt right.
you know its wrong.

you feel like you're pressuring tord.
like youre making him.
forcing him.
you love him......
this is so amazing for you! you finally have the man of your dreams so- why does it feel so wrong?
was it meant to be wrong?
were you expecting anger?
arguments?
fights?
you dont know.
youre not sure.
you... want to marry tord.
sure youve only been "official" for 5 months but dammit youve known eachother forever!

currently, youre in the shower. staring at the wall. obviously deep in your thoughts.

you dont know how long youve been in, but the water is starting to run cold. you should get out.

you get out.
you dry off, get dressed, and leave.
tord walks down the hallway and waves at you cheerfully.
"hi matty!!!" he seems so energetic. like always.
"aw hi baby" you smile softly and pat his head.

you again, spend the day together, listening to tord ramble on about shit he loves and things he likes to do, movies he likes, you know. the usual.
you think hes so cute when hes like this- its just so nice to see him happy.

hes happy with you!
you feel yourself start to lighten up as the days pass.
he has so much interest to him. hes like an open book.

you love him with your whole heart and soul and you cant be fucking happier.

a few more days pass.
your 5 month anniversary.
hes just as handsome and happy as ever, you go on a date.

you... think you know now. you love this man.
nothing has gone wrong in this relationship! everything is perfect!

you love him!

you love him.

just as you enter the restaurant, he hugs you sweetly. like hes never hugged you before. its so warm and loving.... you know you deserve it.

youve felt so much better with him.... you cant put words into it.
you just need him forever, matt.
you need him.

you sit at your table, order, then you start talking.
"happy anniversary. youre my entire world." you say, holding one of tords hands.
you make him blush and giggle.
"i could say the same"

you love spending time with him, you want everyone to know how perfect he is and how happy you are that youre with him.
you cant name a single thing wrong that hes done.

you kiss him gently and then say

"youre my sun. my always."

the night is soon over, and you both had a great time.

you drive him home.

nothing seems suspicious, why should it? whats wrong with having personal time with your boyfriend?

you pull the car over at a little sunflower field.
"...i thought we- were going home? what is this?" tord is puzzled, you can tell.
youre nervous now.

you hold his hands and place them against your chest
"tord... baby. i.. have a question"
you stutter.

"go ahead?" tord replies.

you reach for your back pocket, pull out a little black case and... just spit it out.
"willyoumarryme??"
you open the box to reveal a shiny ruby ring. looks expensive. whered you even get this money?

tord gasps.
he looks at you, the ring, and back again.
"i-i-.... id love to! please!" tord beams

you cant believe your ears.
everything has been going so perfect.
its unreal.
its like a fantasy.
a dream that you never want to wake up from.

its hope.