~When The Going Gets Tough~ A Hamliza Story (Completed)

Chapter 12

ALEX'S POV

I wake up to Eliza's weak arms around me. She looks so sweet, so innocent. Why would she do this to herself?

She starts to stir, and I rub her cheek lightly.

"A-alex?" she asks me, in a soft, weak voice, which breaks my heart

"Hey. How are you feeling?" I ask her, helping her sit up.

"As good as I can be" she replied

"Good. I'll go get you something to eat, ok?" I say

"Alex, I'm not hungry" she objected

"No way are you not eating anything. On a regular morning I'd be ok with this, but not today. You need to regain you strength" I say

"Oh, yeah" she sighs, tearing up

"Shhh. Eliza, its ok. Its over now. Do you want to talk about it?" I ask, rushing to her side.

"I-I'm so so sorry Alexander! I can't believe I thought of that! I'm so sorry I-" she started wailing

"Shhhhh. Eliza, calm down. I get it. You don't have to tell me anything you don't want to. I'm here if you want to talk. Always. Ok?" I say

"Yeah. Thanks Alex. I love you" she says, calming down.

"I love you too. So very much" I reply, giving her a long kiss, and getting up

"Ok. I have to get to class. I'll go get your work while I'm out. You, miss, are on bedrest for at least a week, to regain your strength. I'll see you later." I say, giving her a kiss on her cheek and a hug

"Bye!" she says, and lies back down, closing her eyes. 

I leave the room and go to classes. This is going to be a long day. 

After I get back from checking on Eliza at lunch, I bump into our friends. Great

"Hey! Alex, we wanted to talk to you real quick" Peggy starts

"What?" I hiss

"We were thinking, John is going to move in with me. Maria will move in with Theo, so you and Eliza can stay together officially" she says.

"Ok. Bye" I snap, and start to walk away, but Angelica stops me

"Your not going to say anything about Eliza? What a great boyfriend" she snaps

"Well, nothings different, Angelica. Nothing that wasn't caused by you" I snap back

"Psh. Sure. I can't believe you wont let me talk to my own sister" she said

"Well, she doesn't want to see all of you. I'm just doing her a favor and keeping you all away" I say, starting to get heated

" Your still a dick" she mumbled

"ME?! I'M THE DICK?! I'M NOT THE ONE WHO DROVE HER TO F*CKING SUICIDE, AM I?!" I blurt out. Once I said it, I immediately regret it. I turn on my heel, and start to walk away, but Angelica stops me once again.

"EXCUSE ME?!  WHAT DO YOU MEAN, SUICIDE?!" Angelica yelled

"Shut the hell up, Angelica" I hissed. 

"No! Tell me, Alexander. WHAT HAPPENED TO MY SISTER?!" she exclaimed

I sighed. I don't want to tell her. Not without Eliza's consent. Then, without thinking, I ran.

"Alexander mother f*cking Hamilton come back here!" she yelled, but I ignored her

And I just ran. Back to my Eliza. Away from all of this

ELIZA'S POV

I was in bed watching one of my favorite movies, Mean Girls. Then all of a sudden I hear a banging noise. I scream and start to have yet another panic attack. I stumble out of the bed and fall on the floor. I drag myself to the corner of the room and hide in a ball, shaking. 

"ELIZA?!" I hear. Alex!

"Alex?" I ask, to make sure

"Eliza where are- oh, Eliza are you ok?" he asks after he finds me in the corner. I nod my head yes and reach my arms out for him, telling him to pick me up.

"Eliza what happened?" he asked me. He was red faced, and out of breath, but he looked concerned

"I just let my thoughts get the best of me..." I said, trying to calm down. 

"Eliza, calm down, It's just me. Ok? It's just me" he said, and wrapped his arms around me

"Alex, why are you so out of breath? I can tell something happened. Tell me" I said, calming down

"Fine. I won't lie to you. I was walking and I bumped into the guys... they told me John was moving in with Peggy, and Maria was moving with Theodosia, so you can stay here" Alex started

"Ok... what else? There's something else on your mind. Tell me!" I said, rubbing his back to calm him down

"Well, no offence, but Angelica was being a bitch. She was saying that I was a bad boyfriend for not saying anything about you and that she thought I was a dick for not letting them see you. And I got really mad and I blurted out the...the..." he rushed

I gasped. "Y-you told them? About the... the incident?" I breathed, panicking

"Yes, I did, and I'm so sorry. Once I blurted it out I didn't answer questions and I just ran away. Eliza, calm down, it's ok. I won't let them near you. Ok?" he said, soothing me

"Alex! Their gonna worry, and then their gonna try and see me, and I don't wanna-" I started to panic, but Alex stopped me

"Eliza, please, calm down. I'm so sorry that I told them that, and I won't let you have a panic attack. You have to try and start controlling those stuff Eliza! That's how you get better" he said, which pissed me off

"Alex, don't you think if I could, I would? I can't just stop . I have to live with this! trust me, I would love my panic attacks to not happen, but I can't help it! Everything- everything just scares me" I yell, but it ended in a whisper. 

Alex pulled me into his chest. "Shhhh. Eliza I'm sorry I made you mad. I love you so much, I just don't want you to suffer, or be upset, or hurt. I just want you sane and healthy. Ok?" he explained, rubbing my back.

"Yeah. Sorry I overreacted, Alexander. And I love you too" I said, giving him a kiss

"How about I finish this movie with you, yeah?" he said, tickling me which made me laugh.

Once I had a breather, I put my arms around him and tried  to pull him down with me. I was still pretty weak, but he was caught off guard, so I managed.  And we just laid there, in each others arms. I had all I needing right here. The happiness and comfort that will last me a lifetime. All inside of my Alexander.